Today has been very tough. I am blessed that my PCP is also a close friend. He knows what is going on. He thinks the Cymbalta might help the pain or at least allow me to tolerate it better. I just took my first pill. Most people start to feel a little better in just a few days but it won't be full affect for 4 weeks. Really hoping this will help.
Ok I need to tell you all that I have had a few doses of kratom in the past few days. I actually do not consider it a relapse. It does help the pain some and I am really trying to avoid the oxycodone. It is too fucking easy to drown my sorrows and my physical pain in that shit. Today I took one dose in the morning. I have so much drama going down right now. I am overwhelmed. When it gets like this, I have a very difficult time tolerating the physical pain. Guys I am just feeling like I am holding on by a string. Fuck.
I love you guys.