Quitting Oxycodone with Loperamide- My story begins... - Part 154

By Jungledog · Dec 20, 2014 · ·
  1. Today has been very tough. I am blessed that my PCP is also a close friend. He knows what is going on. He thinks the Cymbalta might help the pain or at least allow me to tolerate it better. I just took my first pill. Most people start to feel a little better in just a few days but it won't be full affect for 4 weeks. Really hoping this will help.

    Ok I need to tell you all that I have had a few doses of kratom in the past few days. I actually do not consider it a relapse. It does help the pain some and I am really trying to avoid the oxycodone. It is too fucking easy to drown my sorrows and my physical pain in that shit. Today I took one dose in the morning. I have so much drama going down right now. I am overwhelmed. When it gets like this, I have a very difficult time tolerating the physical pain. Guys I am just feeling like I am holding on by a string. Fuck.

    I love you guys.


  1. supermono
    Hi JD, I,m really hoping the cymbalta is going to do the trick for you. Hang on in there girl. you are one tuff woman. A bit of kratom is not a relapse.You have pain which needs managing.

    You have helped me and are a fantastic, brilliant, amazing human being and I love you for that. Work on yourself. Stay strong. You have strength in abundance jd, but maybe feeling a bit weak now after your taper and detox. You will get the strenght back but it may take a little time. i did ten press ups today and it nearly killed me but I know it will return. I think of you, lostly and Bumble a lot because of your support. Take some time for your self. Take care. Much love Mono :vibes:

    supermono added 1 Minutes and 28 Seconds later...

    Get some more acupuncture for the depression. just a last minute thought. love mono
  2. Jungledog
    Today was a horrible day. I just was so sad and hurting both physically and emotionaly. Finally just needed it all to go away and I took huge dose of clonidine and gabapentin. Knocked me out for 6 hours. Just repeated this process....the Bumble method. Hoping to sleep 6 more. I feel a little better. Not much but a little.

  3. BeachWalk
    That is not a relapse. You're doing what you need to do to manage the pain. If you need the kratom then do it. If it gets to a point when the pain is too much then you may need to go back on the pain meds. There I said it.

    I hope the Cymbalta proves effective. So frustrating trying to find the right med. I have tried a multitude of anti-depressants over the years and know that finding the best one takes time. I think the key getting the depression to lift which in turn should alleviate the pain a bit.

    Can you take any benzos? I find that reducing anxiety that comes with pain can help. Oh I'm so sorry JD. It's hell to try to find relief. It sounds like you're going through a very stressful time personally as well.

    Hey, don't forget about chocolate — a nice box of See's candy maybe? — toss in some baclofen, klonopin, lidocaine patches and daily massages? And a therapist who can offer in person support?

    You are good person trying to get through a bad time in incredible pain. Remember that you are not alone. I appreciate your honesty so much as do God only knows how many thousands you're helping out in cyberspace.

    Hope you can get some sleep....:vibes:
  4. Golddust Woman
    Hi JD,

    I hope you are getting some much needed rest right now. I am so sorry you are hurting so bad, inside and out. Don't be down on yourself as unmanaged pain leads to depression. I pray the Cymbalta works quickly for you, and not only helps with your physical pain but also lifts your spirits. The down mood your feeling could be PAWS. I've read that it can make life pretty bleak for a while. Remember we all care about you and are here for you. You will get through this most difficult time and the sun will rise upon your life again. Prayers and Hugs. GDW
  5. jessa
    Nice thread Jungledog, thankyou.

    Couldn't have written this better myself if my life depended on it ~

    When people see some things as beautiful,
    other things become ugly.
    When people see things as good,
    other things become bad.

    Being and non- being create each other.
    Difficult and easy support each other.
    Long and short define each other.
    High and low depend on each other.
    Before and after follow each other.

    Therefore the Master
    acts without doing anything
    and teaches without saying anything.
    Things arise and she lets them come,
    things disappear and she lets them go.
    She has but doesn't possess,
    acts but doesn't expect.
    When her work is done, she forgets it.
    That is why it lasts forever.

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