Day 6 of Taper
I did my whole sleep routine in the evening. Last night I added Nyquil, a mix of chamomile and sleepy time tea with honey, and did my yoga. I slept 6 hours. When I woke at 4 aching all over and miserable, I STUMBLED to the bathroom and took 1 tsp of Bali kratom. This allowed me to sleep 2 more hours. I was trying to push off taking my loperamide. So took it at 6:30 which was 26 hours after the last dose and I only took 12 pills. Physically I am beyond tired of waking up sick. I think I have come to hate mornings. One thing on my list of things I am looking forward to when I am clean is to wake up feeling good and refreshed! What are you guys looking forward to?
So physically feeling tired but again not dying. Today I will continue to take kratom but will try to see if I can get by on lesser dose. Emotionally I am in good place. Sitting here sipping my coffee and just taking my time getting moving. My first meeting isn't until 10am and close by so I do not need to rush. Thankfully. Just trying really hard to be positive and keep my head out of my ass. So far I have had no diarrhea but I have IBS with chronic constipation so this may not be an issue for me!
How are you doing today on Day 3? I too look forward to reading your threads and progress. It keeps me motivated and brings happiness to my day! Hope you are still kicking ass!
Welcome to the party! I am glad my writing is helping you. I started this journal just as a way to keep myself honest and to find support. I also hoped to create a journal that supported others and showed them there really is a way out of this hell hole, like Roaddog's thread did for me. Keep rocking your taper! Do you have a thread here?
We all need to find our way. I saw that bullshit on your thread where that guy told you to just suck up and jump. That isn't helpful. I think he might have meant well but the approach was off. My thoughts are just do your slow taper if it is working just NEVER go up...not even one fucking pill. I know you can do this!
Ok off to check your threads. Hang tough people. We are in this game together and we have a winning team!
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Oh and yes I have tried melatonin but it did not seem to work. Will try it again tonight at higher dose. Thanks for suggestion.