Quitting Oxycodone with Loperamide- My story begins... - Part 169

By Jungledog · Dec 31, 2014 · ·
  1. Thanks Kitts! I really love to teach, especially about diet and health. Anxiety is something we all deal with. Glad to hear you have a plan for the New Year!

    Well, I just spent the last 10 hours putting together lecture #2. I try to stay at least 2 weeks ahead of the students or it becomes a night mare!

    Sorry I haven't been on everyone's threads. The next 2 weeks I won't be here much. The first 2 weeks of a semester are the worst.

    Mel & Smith, hope you feel better soon! And everyone else stay well!

Comments

  1. supermono
    Hello my friend,

    I shall be thinking of you tonight as the fireworks take off into the nights sky.

    This will be our year my friend. You wait and see :)

    Happy new Year to you and all at DF.

    Wishing you all the best. Love ya Mono
  2. Golddust Woman
    Dear JD,

    God bless you for reaching out to others to help even when you are hurting so much yourself. You have given me more hope then you will ever know. You are the quiet voice that stills the waves of panic in someone like me. I am forever in your debt.

    I have finally made an appointment with an addiction psychiatrist for next week. I have been totally freaking out over these waves of burning, tingling sensations in my head and arms. I think it is interdose withdrawal because of me cutting down on the oxycodone. I thought the Phenibut ruined me forever, but today I up dosed and the horrible relentless anxiety and burning feeling let up quite a bit. I also have a heavy sensation in my legs and arms. Again, It must be opiate withdrawal. I don't know how you stand feeling like that. I know I need some help to get through this. I did get some kratom too, but I am afraid to use it unless I am really quitting cold turkey, as I don't want another addiction Just to think all of this because of benzos and pain medication. I wish I knew12 years ago what I know now.

    I wish you and your family the best and happiest New Year and the same to everyone else here. We will all be free and happy in 2015!! Love GDW

    Golddust Woman added 4 Minutes and 13 Seconds later...

    P.S. I am taking all of your recommendations to heart. I love the idea of running until I have to stop and then walking. I have never heard of that before but it sure seems like it would reset the nervous system. Thanks so much again.
  3. marathonmel7
    JD,

    Just want to wish you a Happy New Year! Congrats on your sobriety. You did it on your own and in the face of much adversity. I am proud of you. Thank you for supporting me throughout my journey. It's because of people like you that I have 30 days clean today :) Thank you.

    Love to you and yours!
  4. marathonmel7
    U2 – Running To Stand Still Lyrics

    And so she woke up
    Woke up from where she was
    Lying still
    Said I gotta do something
    About where we're going

    Step on a steam train
    Step out of the driving rain, maybe
    Run from the darkness in the night
    Singing ha, ah la la la de day
    Ah da da da de day
    Ah la la de day

    Sweet the sin
    Bitter taste in my mouth
    I see seven towers
    But I only see one way out

    You got to cry without weeping
    Talk without speaking
    Scream without raising your voice

    You know I took the poison
    From the poison stream
    Then I floated out of here
    Singing ha la la la de day
    Ha la la la de day
    Ha la la de day

    She runs through the streets
    With eyes painted red
    Under a black belly of cloud in the rain
    In through a doorway she brings me
    White gold and pearls stolen from the sea
    She is raging
    She is raging
    And the storm blows up in her eyes
    She will

    Suffer the needle chill
    She's running to stand

    Still.
  5. jokerswild
    Skillet "monster" always hit home for me.

    "Monster"

    The secret side of me
    I never let you see
    I keep it caged
    But I can't control it
    So stay away from me
    The beast is ugly
    I feel the rage
    And I just can't hold it

    It's scratching on the walls
    In the closet, in the halls
    It comes awake
    And I can't control it
    Hiding under the bed
    In my body, in my head
    Why won't somebody come and save me from this?
    Make it end!

    I feel it deep within,
    It's just beneath the skin
    I must confess that I feel like a monster
    I hate what I've become
    The nightmare's just begun
    I must confess that I feel like a monster
    I, I feel like a monster
    I, I feel like a monster

    My secret side I keep
    Hid under lock and key
    I keep it caged
    But I can't control it
    Cause if I let him out
    He'll tear me up
    And break me down
    Why won't somebody come and save me from this?
    Make it end!

    I feel it deep within,
    It's just beneath the skin
    I must confess that I feel like a monster
    I hate what I've become
    The nightmare's just begun
    I must confess that I feel like a monster

    I feel it deep within,
    It's just beneath the skin
    I must confess that I feel like a monster
    I, I feel like a monster
    I, I feel like a monster

    It's hiding in the dark
    It's teeth are razor sharp
    There's no escape for me
    It wants my soul,
    It wants my heart

    No one can hear me scream
    Maybe it's just a dream
    Or maybe it's inside of me
    Stop this monster!

    I feel it deep within,
    It's just beneath the skin
    I must confess that I feel like a monster
    I hate what I've become
    The nightmare's just begun
    I must confess that I feel like a monster

    Great idea for a thread!

    jokerswild added 4 Minutes and 40 Seconds later...

    Staind its been a while i love this song

    And it's been awhile
    Since I could hold my head up high
    And it's been awhile
    Since I first saw you
    And it's been awhile
    Since I could stand on my own two feet again
    And it's been awhile
    Since I could call you

    And everything I can't remember
    As fucked up as it all may seem
    The consequences that I've rendered
    I've stretched myself beyond my means

    And it's been awhile
    Since I can say that I wasn't addicted
    And it's been awhile
    Since I can say I love myself as well
    And it's been awhile
    Since I've gone and fucked things up just like I always do
    And it's been awhile
    But all that shit seems to disappear when I'm with you

    And everything I can't remember
    As fucked up as it all may seem
    The consequences that I've rendered
    I've gone and fucked things up again
  6. marathonmel7
    ^^I already posted this song... Good song though. Great minds think alike!
  7. jokerswild
    This was the song that made me realize drugs were killing me and had changed me. it was exactly how i felt at the time. Have been 3 years sober now.

    Fade To Black"
    Life, it seems, will fade away
    Drifting further every day
    Getting lost within myself
    Nothing matters, no one else

    I have lost the will to live
    Simply nothing more to give
    There is nothing more for me
    Need the end to set me free


    Things not what they used to be
    Missing one inside of me
    Deathly lost, this can't be real
    Cannot stand this hell I feel

    Emptiness is filling me
    To the point of agony
    Growing darkness taking dawn
    I was me, but now he's gone

    No one but me can save myself, but it's too late
    Now I can't think, think why I should even try
    Yesterday seems as though it never existed
    Death greets me warm, now I will just say goodbye
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