Yes, I failed to recognize the symptoms too until I began to think about dying. My depression was actually a fairly normal response to my life falling financially apart plus coping with my husband's mental health issues as well. As our marriage tanked, I knew that it wasn't all one sided. Relationships never are...it is a dance really. My depression mirrored his!
I think many people hooked on opiates actually had the depression first. We used it to try and treat our emotional hurt. Then of course this made things worse with time. It is all so very complicated.
For me the most exciting part is having my energy and zest for life return. I am so very excited about that. I have always been a person who can go, go ,go...and my get up and go...well it got up and went!!! LOL I have NEVER been so exhausted in my life. I have only been on the SNRI for 2 weeks and a full blood level take 4-6 weeks plus I am on a very low dose. This means things will continue to improve. Also, the initial side effects I was getting have resolved. I have had no more sweating nor fatigue. It does make me sleepy so I take it one hour before bed and am sleeping like a rock.
Treating depression can and does change everything.