Good morning. I got a good nights sleep and am ready to work hard again today. I enjoy prepping for my classes...sad but true.
GDW, I am sorry your doctor wouldn't help you. It's crazy the stigma attached to opiate use. I used to take up to 300 mg of oxycodone DAILY plus morphine. Now I take a few teaspoons of kratom. Did I trade addictions? Probably but to me there is no comparison. On the high dose opiates, I was depressed, had fog brain, and my endocrine system quit working. On kratom, I am happy, my mind is clear (no high), and my hormone levels are stable. Kratom has a ceiling effect so I think it is much easier to control use. I am able to use it responsibly for my pain. I am grateful that it works to reduce my pain. And it is MUCH easier to taper and get off of than opiates (in MY experience...as others have had a tough time).
Mel, I think going for a second opinion is a wise choice. There are other medications that can help reduce anxiety (without the addiction component). The doctor could give you Xanax but also try other meds. I used to work nights. My sleep has been fucked up ever since. Well, that and I get nightmares. This past month on Cymbalta and clonidine I have been sleeping solid. My husband even commented on it this morning. I slept 10 hours last night...I never did this!
I too wish I could get to meet you. I feel like we all have this intimate connection over our secret struggles. It is very cool and I could not have done this without your support and the support of others! And I love you for it.
OK, off to work. Have a great day everyone.