Good morning! Last night my husband and I went to dinner with friends. We had a lot of fun! Trying to get in some fun as I work too damn much.
My life is falling back into place. My marriage is improving. Things are ok.
Yesterday I saw pain management. I am doing good with the gralise and cymbalta. I asked for him to reduce the oxycodone dose. I left with a prescription for percocet which is a third my previous dose. I have not filled it yet but I will. My state has electronic prescription records for controlled substances. So my doctor knows when I don'r fill it and right now I want this door to remain open. I truly do have pain and kratom is likely to not stay legal where I am.
Addiction for pain patients is complicated. I had hoped my pain would reduce with removing the opiates. It has not. My pain is constant but I do have flares. When flares happen, I need drugs to handle it. So for now that is my plan. I think everybody is an individual with this stuff and you have to find your path. I have continued to fill my prescriptions and have quite a bit of oxy available. I have not abused it and I am pretty damn sure I won't. Why? Because my reason for use...depression...is being managed. I no longer feel the need to numb myself.
Roaddog, I am off the loperamide and have been for sometime. I don't really think I had a problem with it and I was able to taper from it to kratom. It wasn't painless but it was not the horrible experience you had. I truly believe that genetics plays a strong part in this process. Some are simply more susceptible to problems with loperamide than others. I do though hope that my thread highlights the RISKS of using loperamide. Ventricular arrhythmias will kill you. It is not a drug to be fucked with.
Sleepy, I think you nailed that we are each masters of our recovery. We have to find the path we need. For some this will be complete abstinence. For others, it means controlled use only when really necessary. It is complicated. I keep coming here to support others because it helps me too.
Well, I need to catch up on threads!
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And Roaddog, thanks for your support. It was YOUR thread that got me on the path to recovery. For that, I am eternally grateful my friend!
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Beach, I no longer have issues with kratom induced nausea. If the tea works, then that is the way to go! You are doing awesome!!!