It's been a few months again. Sorry about that but I did finally get around to resolving some serious emotional shit that has been my reason for using. It's been hard but also incredibly liberating to finally acknowledge this hidden pain and struggle.
Opiate wise I think I am doing good. I do use kratom occasionally for pain and about 1 month ago I used some oxycodone. BUT I was able to do so in prescribed doses or in small amounts (the kratom) without any psychological need to medicate emotional and not physical pain.
If I have any advise to those who may stumble on this thread....it is to acknowledge your true source of pain and then actually deal with it. That has been my ticket to sobriety and to a return to a life well-lived.
All the best,