Quitting Oxycodone with Loperamide- My story begins... - Part 325

By Jungledog · Dec 4, 2016 · ·
  1. Hi all,

    It's been a few months again. Sorry about that but I did finally get around to resolving some serious emotional shit that has been my reason for using. It's been hard but also incredibly liberating to finally acknowledge this hidden pain and struggle.

    Opiate wise I think I am doing good. I do use kratom occasionally for pain and about 1 month ago I used some oxycodone. BUT I was able to do so in prescribed doses or in small amounts (the kratom) without any psychological need to medicate emotional and not physical pain.

    If I have any advise to those who may stumble on this thread....it is to acknowledge your true source of pain and then actually deal with it. That has been my ticket to sobriety and to a return to a life well-lived.

    All the best,

Comments

  1. Tiahui
    JD - good to hear things are moving forward well for you. What you say about underlying issues - or perhaps co-issues (?) hits at something I've been unravelling myself through coming off pain meds - something I learned through my years of use, tapering and listening to folks here. I was put on opiates for physical pain, but what I came to understand about myself is that "pain is pain is pain" i.e. doesn't matter if it's emotional pain or physical -- it's all registering the same in my brain and nervous system -- and there's this desire or knee-jerk reaction to obliterate all pain. Like that can ever be done, eh? There's a quote hanging over my desk at the moment that seems pertinent:

    "This is the human lot in a nutshell: We produce suffering by trying to run away from it." from 'Zen Confidential: Confessions of a Wayward Monk.

    If I at least attempt to stop running away it tends to reduce the suffering - perhaps not the pain entirely, but at least some of the 'suffering'.

    Keep your eye on that North Star -
    much love and appreciation,
    Tiahui
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