Thanks to you both for your feedback. I think perhaps I wasn't totally clear. For MANY months I have been using loperamide to maintain when I run out of meds (oxy & mscontin). I did try to just use kratom but it does not hold me without fairly severe withdrawal symptoms. I must work and I do not have even 10 days right now to take off. Going back to my meds to wean doesn't work because I have ZERO self control with them and because there aren't enough pills to taper with anyhow! I pretty much know I am in a bad place. The withdrawals I feel are simply opiate withdrawals from a combo or both oxy and loperamide at this point, I think.
I have toyed with the idea of taking the kratom to reduce the loperamide dose more quickly and perhaps this is what I should do. I just didn't want to end up taking both regularly, understand? I only use plain kratom. I do not want to get into extracts.
What I am doing the past few days is trying to extend the time between doses (as I said previously). Last night I went almost 16 hours. I also was planning to try to drop faster (more pills each day) if at all possible. I will probably reduce the evening pills quicker. I was taking more loperamide at one point. 100mg is where I found a balance of sanity. Tonight I will cut the dose in half (take 11 pills) and see what happens.
Again, thanks for your input and concern. There is no easy way out of this though. I just want A way out that will allow me to work and not result in me losing my livelihood. I really do not want to go the Suboxone route...mostly because it could mean I would lose my job. Taking opiates for chronic pain is OK. Taking Suboxone or methadone for addiction is not, unfortunately.
Roaddog, thanks for finding my thread and for offering support no matter what I choose. Ianzombie, thanks for your input as well.