Cmenot and all,
Nobody will invent a non addictive pain medication because there is no money in it!!! Sad but too true. Well, the pain is sucking but that is life. The pill wore off and pain back as it always is but better than
earlier today. Not taking another one. I needed to function tonight. The worst part of all this shit is the fact that I simply can't take off right now. Too many work commitments and my family needs the income and withdrawal and recovery takes at least a solid week. Only way I can take a week is if I am hospitalized.
Yes, my injury is chronic, significant, and there are no surgical options. My options are the ones I am using. I feel trapped but I will just continue on tomorrow with kratom. I will keep tapering. I tried extra kratom today for pain and it didn't work to well. Thinking one pill will do nothing. I mean I have not felt well for weeks so really will it matter to still feel like shit tomorrow? I do not feel well on kratom ever in all the time I have used it. I mean it prevents me from being cold turkey sick but I do not feel well...just this persistant shitty lower level withdrawal.
I think I am getting tired but honestly I just want to be done. What is two more months of shitty? Just keep pushing, right? I mean I do not feel well on 6 tsps of kratom so why would I feel well on two?
The night was nice. Had a lovely time with my husband and colleagues. Good stuff. Thanks for the support all. I know this was a rambling post. JD