Quitting Oxycodone with Loperamide- My story begins... - Part 72

By Jungledog · Nov 17, 2014 · ·
  1. Mel,

    Your post was exactly what I needed to wake up to. Last night I was so frustrated. I mean it was like the pill haulted my withdrawal for 24 hours and then it resumed. If that isn't a mind fuck I do not know what is. Anyhow thanks for the love. It came at the perfect time. Hope you are well.

    Day 26 back to this fucking kratom shit

    So my dose is around 3 tsps. I am counting my 1 am dose as yesterdays night time dose. This will be a hold day as I have several important university meetings and functions I need to drag my sorry ass through.

    I just took 1 tsp and am headed for some coffee. I actually got like 9 hours sleep last night it just is that it isn't very refreshing. I want to wake up rested. I am over waking up tired. Hate this.

    Anyhow, i have to get moving. No exercise today which is bad. Maybe I can get to my rebounder later. I know this is key and need to do it. Just hard fitting it in.

    Hugs to all,
    JD

    Jungledog added 19 Minutes and 27 Seconds later...

    Siting here sipping coffee and this song starts to play...and I begin to cry. Where are these fucking emotions coming from???

    "Sober"
    by Pink

    I don't wanna be the girl who laughs the loudest
    Or the girl who never wants to be alone
    I don't wanna be that call at 4 o'clock in the morning
    'Cos I'm the only one you know in the world that won't be home

    Ah the sun is blinding
    I stayed up again
    Oh, I am finding
    That's not the way I want my story to end

    I'm safe
    Up high
    Nothing can touch me
    But why do I feel this party's over?
    No pain
    Inside
    You're my protection
    How do I feel this good sober?

    I don't wanna be the girl who has to fill the silence
    The quiet scares me 'cause it screams the truth
    Please don't tell me that we had that conversation
    I won't remember, save your breath, 'cos what's the use?

    Ah, the night is calling?
    And it whispers to me softly come and play
    Ah, I am falling
    And If I let myself go I'm the only one to blame

    I'm safe
    Up high
    Nothing can touch me
    But why do I feel this party's over?
    No pain
    Inside
    You're like perfection
    How do I feel this good sober?

    I'm coming down, coming down, coming down
    Spinning 'round, spinning 'round, spinning 'round
    Looking for myself - SOBER [x2]

    When it's good, then it's good, it's so good till it goes bad
    Till you're trying to find the you that you once had
    I have heard myself cry, never again
    Broken down in agony just tryna find a friend

    Oh Oh

    I'm safe
    Up high
    Nothing can touch me
    But why do I feel this party's over?
    No pain
    Inside
    You're like perfection
    How do I feel this good sober

    Oh Oh

    I'm safe
    Up High
    Nothing can touch me
    But why do I feel this party's over?
    No pain
    Inside
    You're like perfection
    How do I feel this good sober?

    Will I ever feel this good sober?
    Tell me, No no no no no pain
    How do i feel this good sober?

Comments

  1. lostlygirl
    Beautiful, my dear. I'm getting the kids off to school but just wanted to wish you love for the day :)
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