Yeah Mel, I am really, really thinking of saying fuck it the afternoon of Dec 4th. I technically can't get off but if I get a sudden "flu" well so be it. Yep. Unless something changes this is my new plan. I am done with this crap.
Anxiety sucks. Period. I know this is going to sound crazy but have you tried yoga? Good book is Yoga As Medicine by Tim McCall. There is chapter on treating anxiety. I know it helps me sleep and I can't sleep at all if I try and skip it.
Hugs to you all and feeling better with this decision made,