I love this! Getting off drugs AND getting sexy!!! Woot woot!!
Jungledog added 66 Minutes and 12 Seconds later...
End of Day 31
I actually had to think about how much kratom I have had. Today it was 8 tsps. and will take one more at bedtime. This is the same as yesterday. I was tired but I decided to simply give myself a break. It has been quite sometime since I took 2 days off in a row. I have no detox symptoms. I do though find the hag comes to visit sometimes. Today when she whispered I thought of Hydroxyout and I remembered to just surf the wave. It passed. Today was a good pain day and I was grateful.
I am finding that I do not want to hold. My mind always drifts to getting done with this. Again, not seeking perfectionism but seeking the end. I have been trying to come off this shit since June 2013 and each day I feel like it steals yet another day of my life. I am not sure I have ever truly hated something in my life...yes including my attackers...but I hate what these drugs have taken from me and that I cannot get back. I can't turn back the clock and relive what I missed from my children's lives these past few years. The anger that burns is a good anger...not self-loathing but empowered. I want done...forever and I will do this. I will.