I really can't try to justify this action. I was going to say hey at least it wasn't on meth. It was on something legal that's all I'll say on that.
I had made my mind up on this relapse for at least two or three days before the actual time of the consumption. I sometimes don't want to tell family because I think some of them look at me different now a days, just for being real extreme on drugs. But I don't think a person just wakes up one day and says , "hey I'm going to be a hardcore drug addict"!!!
It's something for many that can hold down employment at a job takes a few months or several years to really get down. Bottom line I fucked up