Alcohol is just too easy for me to get. Like if I want weed/pills/whatever I have to get in touch with people and my anxiety and social phobia make it hard. Plus the laws are so much harsher against illegal shit that I sometimes get paranoid about having stuff lying around.
Literally whenever I go out to get groceries, out to eat, see a movie my first instinct is to order/buy alcohol. There are hardly any events that don't serve it. You can be in the fucking potato chip aisle and then wham giant display of wine or something.
So I try to stay inside my apt all the time when I'm detoxing. After awhile I'm pretty much physically okay. That's when I realize that I don't really like doing anything without a buzz. Favorite shows...boring, friends...out drinking, reading...can't concentrate. I am this close to going out and picking up a liter but then I'll be right back at the fucking beginning again. I think most addicts start out just being psychologically addicted and then after years it becomes physical.