Starting over ain't easy. But that's me again. The song that never ends.
I did reach a turning point, however, in the way I talk to myself. During those dark times of anxiety, paranoia, guilt, I am the worst to myself. But today while I was experiencing this, I changed my thoughts to more affirming ones.
You will be okay.
You are a kind and loving person.
This will get better.
And here's a strange thought that may or may not make sense to anyone else...my last purchase, through a friend, was from a different source. It was way better than the other source I was using. So, my thought is, since I don't want to go back to my source, and I don't know how often this better source delivers, it will be easier for me to quit. A forced quit, if you will. I mean it still will be difficult to go through the quitting phase, but I won't have easy access anymore.
Here's to a new day.
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