Sky has fallen: Zenobia Tells All - Part 9

By ZenobiaSky · Jan 25, 2015 · ·
  1. As I begin a new chapter in my life, I feel it's only fair that I update my journal. I feel like I've let down a lot of people, but mostly myself. The work I was doing on this site helped me so much, and when my life and my addiction spiraled out of control, I felt like such a hypocrite to even participate anymore.

    In the past 6 months my addiction to meth consumed my life, my surroundings, and everyone I surrounded myself with. Before I knew it I was using every day with severe withdraws if I didn't use. Today I've been clean 6 days. The longest I've made it is 8. The turning point for me was 2 weeks ago when the narcotic task force raided my house (for the second time) and arrested me. Now I'm looking at 2 felony possession charges. I spent 2 nights and 2 days in jail, and it was the worst moment in my life. I am back in treatment, and on Feb 2nd I will be going to inpatient treatment.

    As much as this hurts, I have to admit the cops who arrested me saved my life. Now I can concentrate on getting my health back, my life back, and hopefully my dignity. I wouldn't have made it this far if it wasn't for the incredibly supportive family I have that love me enough to stand by me, and still believe in me.

    Addiction is no joke, and truly leads either in jail or dead. I'm just lucky that I am finally ready to do what it takes to be clean, for good this time. I apologize to everyone I disappointed and let down, and thank everyone for there continued support in my battle.

Comments

  1. TheBigBadWolf
    zen,

    I've nothing to add than to say I'm glad you have found the force to come back and tell.

    Nothing is hypocritical in participating when we fall into self-digged holes.

    Good luck for your further way, please keep us updated.

    BBW
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