As I begin a new chapter in my life, I feel it's only fair that I update my journal. I feel like I've let down a lot of people, but mostly myself. The work I was doing on this site helped me so much, and when my life and my addiction spiraled out of control, I felt like such a hypocrite to even participate anymore.
In the past 6 months my addiction to meth consumed my life, my surroundings, and everyone I surrounded myself with. Before I knew it I was using every day with severe withdraws if I didn't use. Today I've been clean 6 days. The longest I've made it is 8. The turning point for me was 2 weeks ago when the narcotic task force raided my house (for the second time) and arrested me. Now I'm looking at 2 felony possession charges. I spent 2 nights and 2 days in jail, and it was the worst moment in my life. I am back in treatment, and on Feb 2nd I will be going to inpatient treatment.
As much as this hurts, I have to admit the cops who arrested me saved my life. Now I can concentrate on getting my health back, my life back, and hopefully my dignity. I wouldn't have made it this far if it wasn't for the incredibly supportive family I have that love me enough to stand by me, and still believe in me.
Addiction is no joke, and truly leads either in jail or dead. I'm just lucky that I am finally ready to do what it takes to be clean, for good this time. I apologize to everyone I disappointed and let down, and thank everyone for there continued support in my battle.
Sky has fallen: Zenobia Tells All - Part 9
- addiction and recovery
- chronic pain
- crack addiction
- crack addiction and recovery
- eating disorders
- eating disorders and drugs
- meth addiction
- methamphetamine addiction
- methamphetamine addiction recovery
- opiate addiction
- pain management and addiction
- pain management and recovery
- relapse and withdrawal