It can't have been, because I was the happiest person I've ever been before I started weed and when I sobered up during that break in Jan/Feb/Mar/etc.
I was also happy up until my bowl size increased dramatically and when I started feeling boring without it or my memory became wrecked. One of the deciding factors for me quitting was once I was having sex with my girlfriend in the kitchen and I thought to myself "I wonder what it'd be like if I drove that knife into her"... This thought TERRIFIED me.
I know I am depressed, but everyone who knows me, knows that this is unlike me. I am normally a very "in the moment" type of guy and I just get on with things.
I don't know. Perhaps you're right, that's why I'm awaiting counselling.