The Beginning of My End to Addiction/Incredibly Rough Day Today. - Part 10

By Sleepynurse · Jan 18, 2015 · ·
  1. Re: The Beginning of Her End to Addiction/Incredibly Rough Day Today.

    Thanks guys, Yes JD as a nurse and specifically Women's Health nurse I had dealt with domestic violence issues a lot. I remember once in nursing school learning about domestic violence and feeling like I was "checking all the boxes" so to speak.

    Being sober, I immediately feel the resentments returning that I've suppressed for so long. I just, I just don't know guys, feeling so lost and sad and my only escape that made me proud, My career, I lost.

    I feel as if I'm grieving for the life that I used to live. I can't believe I've lost my career. Why couldn't I have dealt with my issues before I got to the point I was at. So sad. So weepy today.

    I don't know if divorce is the answer. But I wish I hadn't destroyed my means of self sufficiency. I'm feeling so much self-loathing today.

    On a positive, I went to the gym 3 times last week and went for at least 45 minutes each time. I actually jogged 2 miles straight last night! My lungs and thighs burned but I told my body, my mind is stronger than I believe it to be!

    I'm still having trouble motivating myself to do much else but you people are so encouraging and really do give me hope. I truly hope that my days as a nurse are not forever over.

Comments

  1. Jungledog
    Re: The Beginning of Her End to Addiction/Incredibly Rough Day Today.

    Sleepy,

    You have not lost your career. This is though why you need a lawyer. You will be asked to go before the board to explain the circumstances. I have gone with students in the past who ended up with felonies while in school and were arguing to be allowed to sit for boards. They do take the situation under consideration. So do NOT sit on your ass. Be proactive. Show the state what you have done to treat the depression and addiction. Explain that you need the job to get out of the domestic violence. Your attorney will help you get this done. Do you have the support of your parents or siblings?
  2. Sleepynurse
    Re: The Beginning of Her End to Addiction/Incredibly Rough Day Today.

    Yes, my mom has been with me everyday since I told her about my addiction. She is very, very supportive.

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    Thank you so much JD. You have nothing to gain by helping me but you do and so many others on here. You are a wonderful person.
  3. Jungledog
    Re: The Beginning of Her End to Addiction/Incredibly Rough Day Today.

    You are welcome. This is what DF is about. Focus on getting well. This process will be difficult especially if it means divorce but you have your mother to support you and a whole life ahead of you. You may find this experience takes you in a new direction in your career. Just get your ducks in a row love. You can survive this.
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