Re: The Beginning of Her End to Addiction/Incredibly Rough Day Today.
Thanks guys, Yes JD as a nurse and specifically Women's Health nurse I had dealt with domestic violence issues a lot. I remember once in nursing school learning about domestic violence and feeling like I was "checking all the boxes" so to speak.
Being sober, I immediately feel the resentments returning that I've suppressed for so long. I just, I just don't know guys, feeling so lost and sad and my only escape that made me proud, My career, I lost.
I feel as if I'm grieving for the life that I used to live. I can't believe I've lost my career. Why couldn't I have dealt with my issues before I got to the point I was at. So sad. So weepy today.
I don't know if divorce is the answer. But I wish I hadn't destroyed my means of self sufficiency. I'm feeling so much self-loathing today.
On a positive, I went to the gym 3 times last week and went for at least 45 minutes each time. I actually jogged 2 miles straight last night! My lungs and thighs burned but I told my body, my mind is stronger than I believe it to be!
I'm still having trouble motivating myself to do much else but you people are so encouraging and really do give me hope. I truly hope that my days as a nurse are not forever over.
The Beginning of My End to Addiction/Incredibly Rough Day Today. - Part 10