The Beginning of My End to Addiction/Incredibly Rough Day Today. - Part 29

By Sleepynurse · Feb 21, 2015 · ·
  1. Re: The Beginning of Her End to Addiction/Incredibly Rough Day Today.

    Ah JD. You are amazing.

    Today was a good day. It's overcast and beautiful. Tonight I'm going to see the Trailer Park Boys, haha, so I'm pretty excited about that. I'm so excited to just laugh my ass off and not worry about anything for a couple of hours.

    Husband actually got me the tickets a while ago as a surprise because he knows I love them but just gave them to me on Tuesday. No expectation of me taking him. Just gave them to me and told me to have fun. That was pretty cool.

    I think he's really been using our separation to look at himself and figure out what he wants in life, too.

    Between the marines and then prison, he never really had a chance to figure out "who he is". And as some of you have asked, yes he was badly abused as a child and teenager by his parents. Then obviously military and prison don't bring out your warm cuddly instincts.

    I'm excited for him to figure out what he really wants in life. He's so co-dependent, I really want to see him figure out how to be happy alone with just himself. Not sure if it will ever happen but I hope it does.

    Gotta go for a jog really quickly before the show tonight. Going to try for 5k. Just knock it out. Even if I have to go super slow at the end, lol.

    I know there will be a lot of people drinking and/or high around me tonight and I'm just knowing that if I can do my 5k, that will be all the euphoria I need.

    Warmth from here on Earth,

    Sleepynurse added 93 Minutes and 51 Seconds later...

    I did it! :D :D :D

    Pretty slow for what I used to do but considering I've only been at it for like 4-5 ish weeks! Ahh, I know it's not a super huge deal but it feels good to "battle your mind" and win!



  1. Cmenot
    Thats all good news!!! So glad to hear about things going well on both home AND work fronts!!
  2. Delia

    I joined DF because of your post, l read everything and have been reading everything. What you have gone through, what you have done and the goals you have set yourself are amazing accomplishments.

    I read your post and then joined the very next day and posted my story. My story isn't the same as yours and l posted all wrong, using the wrong language like a newbie. What you were brave enough to say on DF gave me the bravery to put one foot forward and post about my issues.

    Since then l've posted and roamed around the site but it has been very therapeutic and each day gets easier for me.

    From one place on earth to another - thank you for writing your story, for sharing your experience and showing me that it's okay to talk about how l feel.
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