Thank you so much!
I'm having a really hard time this week. It's like I just feel emotionally weak. My willpower is tapped out.
I'm lonesome, really, really lonesome. TMI warning but I haven't had sex in 20 days which is a REALLY long time. So it's like I'm battling cravings for sex and drugs/alcohol.
I won't with my husband. I won't with a stranger. So I'm just really lonely. I know it sounds pathetic but I need to be held. Soooo badly. Like I would pay a stranger to pretend they know me and cuddle me. Not really but you hopefully understand.
Exercise is only helping so much. My intensive outpatient helps but only so much. Today is just a weaker day. I know not everyday feels like this. But today it's bad. I feel like I have no one to talk to and definitely no one that could truly help.
Sigh. There is no real point to this post. Just need to feel like I'm talking to someone, I guess.
The Beginning of My End to Addiction/Incredibly Rough Day Today. - Part 31