Hey everyone, I cannot express how much your thoughts mean to me. I'm having a really tough time, which I imagine is completely normal. Today I've mostly felt numb/empty. Absolutely everything reminds me of him/what he did.
My feelings oscillate quickly between mostly anger and sadness. Today was the first day I didn't go to our home at all which I think was good. Also, the first day I haven't cried (yet). I don't know if I'll ever be able to live in that house again. He hung himself in our daughter's bedroom... fucked up, eh?
Even if he hadn't done it there I don't know that I'd be able to go back, so many memories, good and bad... I don't know. I'm nit truly worried about it right now. I dunno. Just feel very weird right now, very on edge, too.
The Beginning of My End to Addiction/Incredibly Rough Day Today. - Part 34