I'm doing okay. I was feeling very calm for most of yesterday then I went to a meeting at 630 and someone shared that her grandmother had died last week and she was crying and then everyone that shared was talking about losing their parents or grandparents and it was just too much. I had to excuse myself.
I went outside and cried the hardest I have since the day he died.
A few of the girls came out and they all took my phone number and said they were going to bugging me. It was so kind. When the meeting was over everyone gave me hugs and kisses. Perfect strangers (except for a couple that I know from my Friday meeting) and I hadn't even shared.
So much kindness and love. It was amazing. The girls stayed with me until I calmed down and invited me to coffee. I declined as I had to go get my kids but I will definitely go out with them sometime. Not too many friends in real life and the few that have reached out don't know about my addictions and they have all called and said, "we should go out for a drink"...
I know their intentions are well and that is just what people do I guess but I'm no longer a normal person.
Anyway, the meeting was exactly what I needed and I'm so grateful they exist.
Going to rehab now.
Warmth and love to everyone,
Amy, the sleepy nurse
The Beginning of My End to Addiction/Incredibly Rough Day Today. - Part 37