The Beginning of My End to Addiction/Incredibly Rough Day Today. - Part 6

By Sleepynurse · Jan 16, 2015 · ·
  1. Re: The Beginning of Her End to Addiction/Incredibly Rough Day Today.

    I'm feeling so very ill. Most of my w/d symptoms have abated but I feel so ill. The idea of incarceration and being separated from my lovely children on top of everything else going on. I can't stop throwing up from anxiety and disgust with myself. I know i fucked up so horribly but what action was I supposed to take to rectify everything? Fuck, Fuck. I'm in pieces right now.

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  1. Mr Bumble
    Re: The Beginning of Her End to Addiction/Incredibly Rough Day Today.


    You did what you felt you had to do when you couldn't see any other option.

    Whether it turns out to have been the right thing to do only time will tell. But you did it and now the choices you've made will lead you down whatever path they are heading. I've made many mistakes in my life, but those mistakes have all lead me to where I am today, and there are things about my life I would never change, which means embracing my mistakes.

    Stay strong, whatever life throws at you it will make you stronger if you let it. Getting and staying clean while the shits hitting the fan is the hardest thing to do in the world, but if you can do it you will come out the other side stronger and wiser than before.

    Hang tough
  2. BeachWalk
    Re: The Beginning of Her End to Addiction/Incredibly Rough Day Today.

    Sleepy - Please don't jump to the idea of going to jail. For all you know, your employer may do nothing so keep that in mind too. Try to stay calm and do some research. If you can arm yourself with knowledge you will be less freaked out. And more importantly, prepared for whatever may or may not come your way.

    In any event, as Bumble said you did what you had to do when you couldn't see any other option. And you were being truthful and honest. There is no way to get off drugs without being truthful. So please try not to worry. And look how far you've come already. I am truly amazed at how much you've accomplished in such a short time.

    Can you call a friend, therapist or counselor to talk to? Of course you can always come here, but you probably should be talking to someone there for moral support too. Maybe your husband or a friend? Try not to imagine the worst case scenario. But you need some help. You have come so far. Hang in there.

    BeachWalk added 23 Minutes and 27 Seconds later...

    Sleepy here's an interesting article. Just know that there are many nurses with addiction problems. No one in this article ever went to jail. Many are sent to rehab or counseling programs for help. Just Google it. "Investigation: Addicted nurses steal patients' drugs"
  3. Jungledog
    Re: The Beginning of Her End to Addiction/Incredibly Rough Day Today.

    Nurse,

    I worried that my post would upset you but I wanted to protect and inform you. The reality is even if they charge you if you have no criminal history it is more likely that you will be sent to rehab and counseling. Sounds like you diverted the waste which is much better than taking meds from patients.

    Get an attorney. Get an addiction specialist and concentrate on getting clean. You will get your life back. Perhaps you will return to healthcare as an addiction nurse? That would be a great role.

    Love to you. This too will pass. You will get help.
  4. Cmenot
    Re: The Beginning of Her End to Addiction/Incredibly Rough Day Today.

    Ugh, I am so sorry this happened to you. And yes, you should see an attorney asap. Start NA meetings or check into an addiction counselor.
    dating meth... I'm sorry for what happened to you as well. The police must have had some compelling evidence to get the RN to accept a plea bargain.
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