Re: Detox Journal from massive IV morph/heroin habbit
Not sure whether I should start a new thread or continue this one? My last detox above was quite a journey, got kicked out f home, broke up with my girl, my best friend died, it's a bit of a drama but i got through it, unfortunately I relapsed but i'm ready to go again/
It's almost a year exactly since i started this thread. I smahed the detox but failed ot stay clean long, my habit quickly escalated back to my previous use and beyond. I started taking IV morphine use to a whole new level.
Anyone with experience of IV morphine knows that shotting to much can have really nasty effects. last year the max I could shot in one go was 200mg, if i needed more I had to wait a good 10 to 15 mins or i suffered horrible histamine reactions, swollon face and hands, itching so painful i tore my skin scratching and banging head aches. I thought 200mgs was my limit but this year I somehow pushed in up to shooting 300mg the minute I woke up followed by another 200mgs shortly after just to get me to work. I was doing half a gram of heroin throughout the day and another half after work with 150mg of IV morph to get me to sleep.
Amazingly I've worked everyday through this and my business has grown so prospects are looking good, but i need to invest in new tools and with child maintenance and a massive drug habit I am constantly broke.
I can't take it anymore so I'm detoxing again. Same protocol as last time. Clonidine, Diazepam, Tamzepam and Gabapentin.
I stated yesterday taking 400mg oral slow release morphine in the morning with 600mg of gaba and 0.1mg of clonidine. I forgot just how intense clonidine side effects are before your body gets used to it and was knocked out for 8 hours. 12 hours after the morp dose i took 350mg of morph and held out till midnight when I took 20mg of diazepam 600mg gaba and 0.1mg clonidine.
Could probably have taken less but wanted to sleep and I did all night
This morning I took 300mg oral morph and so far have not taken any other meds. I feel alright, bit wozy from last nights meds but going to hold out as long as I can before redosing with diazes and stuff.
I have a few 20mg Tamzepams but they are being saved for when it gets really bad, they really are a life saver when the pain gets so bad you think your gonna crack. one ot two of them mixed with the other meds puts me on my arss and theres no way i could get out of bed to score.
Anyways, not seen any names i reconise on here so hello to everyone I don't yet know. Hope to get to know you soon. Feel free to have a read through my thread but It's a bit long winded. Last detox I layed in bed and pretty much spent the entire time on here writing on one thread or another,it helped keep me sane through a really rough couple of weeks
Mr Bumble added 617 Minutes and 35 Seconds later...
Quick update, woke up feeling ok, meds got me to sleep for a good few hours. 300mg oral SR morph this morning and no other meds. held out for 12 hours then took 250mg oral morph and 600mg gaba and 0.1mg clonidine. didn't seem to really have muc affect and was feeling pretty ropey so 3 hours later I've just taken 25mgs diazepam, 0.15mg clonidine and 900mg gaba. Hoping that will get me to sleep.
From tomorrow things will get real rough