The detoxes and relapses of a major Heroin and Morphine addict - Part 62

Re: Detox from massive IV morph/heroin 2.0, skip to post 169 for the latest detox

Thanks for the heads up on the gabapentine jungledog, normally i research all drugs but thtis is one i know little about. I started with doses of 600mg and am up to 1800mg with diazepam and clonidine.

I made the jump ths morning, didnt take the 30mg morpine but took the 10mg for the hell of it so no more opiates from here on in. Gone from a crazy big habit down to 10mg in 5 days with very little pain, well moments of pain and clock watching for next dose.

I have a pill pot with 4 section for each day, so 6 hours per dose. I'm up tp 0.25 clonidine 30mg diazepam and 1800mg gabapentine. so far it's knocking me for six, typing this is a real strugle so i think i will go low next dose depending on the pain. The last section in the pill pot for the night is loaded with tamzepam and nitrazepam, plus the other meds, this is my knock out dose and i garentee that even in peak wd;s it will gt me to sleep for a little bit.

Apart from that I have an emergency "fuck it i cant do this pot" there's enough meds in there to knock ut a horse so I'm all set to do this. So far it's been pretty easy but the next few day will get harder

I'm so emotional and crying at everything. Listening to lots oof music and certian songs have me bursting into tears. Anyone whoes read back past post 169 will know I found out my best friend died last time i was detoxing. I never really dealt with it so that comes up a lot. but this time things in my life are different. i have good work to get straight into as some as I'm on my feet and I wlll be flying to portugal to visit his grave and try to let go because I havent been able to and I still miss him so much,

Mostly though i want to be clean for me daughter, she's 3 now and has know idea daddies a junkie but she's learning things fast and it;s only a matter of time before she find out. i want to be a proper dad an although I love her more than anything, when you have to have that fix the drugs come first.

I'm really wobbly so going to stop typing now and lye down.

Love to all and peace

Mr Bumble added 102 Minutes and 53 Seconds later...

Just a quick hi to everyone in this section of DF. originally this thread started in the opiate addiction section but it became some long I figured it should be move here.