Re: Detox from massive IV morph/heroin 2.0, skip to post 169 for the latest detox
Thanks for the kind words about my friend lostly. I have very few people I can truely call freinds and Eddy was truely special to me, I miss him deeply.
As to my age well I'm happy to saw I'm slightly younger than you predicted. I only just turned 33. A shit age to be single as every hot girl is married. guess i'l just have to wait a few years until they get devorced. So any single UK hotties want a night out with an ex drug addict/ convict with commitment issues, i'm your man!
You inspired me to go back and re read what I wrote last year. I didn't get much further than the death of my friend but I read enough to see a massive difference in me that I hadn't realised was so pronouced. Last year i was feeled with anger, rage, depression and grief.
This year I am filled with hope and positivity.
I guess however hard leaving my family was it was right for m mental state, and things are easier with me my ex and little girl now. and feeling like I have some prospects now is helping me immensly
Day 11 nearly over
I put several quotes in the other day for jobs I'm been pricing up. I always underpay myself as i've not had the confidence to ask for the right money, it always seems to high. But the end of this year i took on a full shop refit. I did the lot, floors, staging, lighting, signage. everything but ainting which was sub contracted out to another firm. I looked at the job at he end and thought "man this looks shit hot, why do i charge so little?"
So the first quote i put in i added an extra 65% to my daily labour rate. I was shitting my pants when i sent the email as i was convinced I would get told to shove my quote up my arss. Well just got a text today, all it said was "sounds like a fair price, call and lets arrange a start date"
So I'm well fucking pleased, it's a good earner to start the year and makes me feel a little better after getting shot down by Hot tattoo shop girl!!!
Tattoo didn't get finished last night as my mate runs a pub and was short staffed so couldn't do it. made him promiss he'll do it before NYW cos don't want to go out to a party with a half finished sentence written down my arm.
Oh yeah you wanted to know about meds lostly. well I'm of regular dosing. I pop a diazepam if I need to go into town. Don't really think 10mgs has much affect but makes me feel more comfortable heading out into the maddness of xmas shopping.
But at night I'm still taking tamzepam, gabapentine and clonidine when i start losing it from lack of sleep.
Mr Bumble added 1048 Minutes and 24 Seconds later...
Did my last minute shopping today. Town was crazy busy so had to pop in a few cafe's for esspresso and a scotch or two!
Been chatting to this girl online, she's cool and right up my street but has made it totally clear that she is in love and that's cool with me cos I just like chatting with cool people. But it's made me feel a bit sad today. Will have my daughter in the morning then I'm on my own.
I don't want love, I honestly don't think there's any space left for it after my daughter, but I would like a companion, someone to share things with, watch a movie with, have a cuddle. Had that all and more with a great woman this is why I have given up on love. That and other reasons. I enjoy my own company and don't like a lot of people as 90% of them out there seem to be idiots, but it don't mean I don't get lonely at times.