Re: Detox from massive IV morph/heroin 2.0, skip to post 169 for the latest detox
Hey guy's, thanks for all the posts and PM's asking after me. We'll I'm happy to tell you I'm still clean and must be on day 15-16 something like that anyway.
Anyone whose followed my thread from the beginning knows last detox I had a lot on my plate. No job, moved out from family home, best friend died. I think it was to much for me to handle so I was destine to relapse.
Well this xmas was kind hard as I never dealt with a lot of the pain from last year so I've had a lot of tears. But my resolve was so strong I made it through am still am.
Christmas morning with my daughter was great. I picked her up at 8.30 am and dropped of presentts and letters for my ex and stepsons. she loved her gifts and and we had fun an when I got a call from my ex saying she loved her gifts and the boys said my presents won best present of the year award!
Every lad needs a strong role model and I was not in many ways but i looked after those boys for 5 years and taught them a thing or two, brought them there first air rifle and taught then proper gun safety, their both adults now so felt confident buying them crossbows haha, they both living out in the sticks now so figured they'd have plenty of land to shot them on.
Ex wasn;t so pleased about the gifts but really happy I made her boys happy.
Well after dropping my daughter off at lunch time that was over for me and I wasn't feeling to christmasy. Sorry for those struggling with drink but i hit it hard after that. A liter of baileys and a lot of beers sat at my computer listening music and looking at facebook and thinking.
Boxing day was just chilling and daddy time which was cool.
But yesterday I got a text in the morning from a friend, it read "Have you heard the sad news?"
I knew someone was dead and I ran through a list in my head and knew who it was. I called him and I was right. My Once business partner from my coke days and my long time partner in crime was found dead on Christmas day.
It didn't hit me at first as I'm not gonna lie and say he was my closest friend but the more I thought about it the sadder I felt. This was a well known and loved man, he had his demons like me and for that reason had become quite reclusive and I was one of only a few he actually spent time with over the last few years.
Two Christmases two buddies.
This guy once said to me "Bumble, if your serious about getting clean do a detox with a load of drugs next to you, if your serious you'll do it"
Well I did it bro, I had until yesterday a big box full of morphine, needles, all the works and it has been right next to me from day one of the detox.
I needed to get out so called some friends who knew him, wrapped the drugs I had in an unmarked box and carefully put them in a place where i know they would be found by someone who would appreciate them then drank many a shot to our fallen friend.
My best mate owns a pub and after he kicked everyone out he just left me to sit at the bar till i was ready to go. I didn't want to go home till I knew i was so drunk I'd pass out. 4.30am I rolled in, took my sleep meds and passed out till 11 am. Had terrible nightmares and woke up feeling hung over and sad.
But I'm still alive and kicking and gunning for life. I'm back at work soon so between that and daddy time I won't be drinking. I'm actually dieing to get back to work so may even start tomorrow.
Proper big meet up and send off drinks are tomorrow so will have to show my face. It will be a big do,
if your my age or older and were on the rave sceen in the mid nighties in my town you'd know this guy, everyone knew him, it's a sad sad loss to so many.
Bigs up my brother, hope you finally found peace, i'll miss you