The detoxes and relapses of a major Heroin and Morphine addict - Part 98

By Mr Bumble · Jan 4, 2015 · ·
  1. Re: Detox from massive IV morph/heroin 2.0, skip to post 169 for the latest detox

    Hey JD, yeah been blowing off a bit of steam but feel like it's done now. Cocaine didn't do what it used to do for me, just made me want to eat diazepam and made me run my script out early. E's come down was evil and not planning on doing that any time soon. Booze I've always been able to take or leave. have the odd booze up but 90% of the year a pint or a glass or 2 of wine does me fine.

    As to the relationship thing it's hard. I loved a girl once but left her, why, honestly not sure, probably because as cool as she was she didn't satify me, I am a super freak, very er, open minded. never met a girl who furfilled the love I felt for her and the sexual satisfaction I desire.

    Also most cool girls don't want a guy like me, not hot ones anyway, takes some special kinda girl

    That and also my daughter, I find it very hard to focus on more than one relationship at a time and she's my main focus. A week ago I'd have said I wasn't interested in anything more than a casual fling, but shit, starting to think I could change the way I see that, donno, it's an unobtainable dream right now

    Once.upon.a.time, thanks, had just DM you'd funnily enough

    Mr Bumble added 776 Minutes and 45 Seconds later...

    Oh man I'm ill, for use not dope sick though, just ill. First time in years I haven't been able to cure my ill's with heroin. Lemsips and ginger for me. Bored as hell, did so much sitting around while detoxing I want to be out of the house now.

    Bumble feels very sorry for himself today

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    Mr Bumble
    35 years old and been an addict for over 20 years now. Detoxing I can do but staying clean is a battle I keep losing. I'll keep on fighting though

Comments

  1. Jungledog
    Re: Detox from massive IV morph/heroin 2.0, skip to post 169 for the latest detox

    Bumble,

    There is a woman for you somewhere. Relationships are hard but they bring so much richness to life. Yesterday I spent the whole day with my husband and kids. We went to a flea market, then lunch and then mini golf. We laughed and talked. I have raised my kids to love each other...not to compete as many families do. I watched my 23 year old chase and tickle the 9 year old...laughing and just having a blast. My husband held my hand. I wished I could freeze time. Everyone deserves to find this happiness.

    Hope you feel better soon!
  2. Cmenot
    Re: Detox from massive IV morph/heroin 2.0, skip to post 169 for the latest detox

    Mr Bumble, I'm so sorry about the loss of your friends. I hope you feel better soon, sounds like you might have the flu? You have a very good sense of humor and I really enjoyed reading these last few pages.
  3. Jungledog
    Re: Detox from massive IV morph/heroin 2.0, skip to post 169 for the latest detox

    Bumble,

    I was at the super market tonight and I though of you! I saw a father there with his young daughter and it was so obvious how much he loved and adored her. It made me think of you!!! :)

    I think you needed to burn off steam and party to help you cope with the loss of your friend. You seem to have a great depth of self-knowing...you "get" what your boundaries are. I also was glad to hear you are re-thinking the idea of a long-term relationship with a woman. You are incredibly funny and thoughtful. You will make some woman very happy and proud to have you. I truly mean this. I am proud of you and wish you the best in all that life brings.

    Love that little girl for me. :)
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