the slaughter of my demons and dragons - Part 6

By poppybreath · Jan 7, 2015 · ·
  1. Thank you, it's therapeutic. Something I began to neglect when the drug psychosis would set in.

    Today and yesterday I've been having dizzy spells. A bit lethargic feeling and today nauseous. Started getting shaky and having the chills earlier. Wonder what all of this is about. Just been feelin weird the last 40-ish hours.

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    "Perhaps you see it that way. I've found solace in the reality of it all, she wasn't meant to be that person."

    My shadow's
    Shedding skin and
    I've been picking
    Scabs again.
    I'm down
    Digging through
    My old muscles
    Looking for a clue.
    I've been crawling on my belly
    Clearing out what could've been.
    I've been wallowing in my own confused
    And insecure delusions
    For a piece to cross me over
    Or a word to guide me in.
    I wanna feel the changes coming down.
    I wanna know what I've been hiding in
    My shadow.
    Change is coming through my shadow.
    My shadow's shedding skin
    I've been picking
    My scabs again.
    I've been crawling on my belly
    Clearing out what could've been.
    I've been wallowing in my own chaotic
    And insecure delusions.
    I wanna feel the change consume me,
    Feel the outside turning in.
    I wanna feel the metamorphosis and
    Cleansing I've endured within
    My shadow
    Change is coming.
    Now is my time.
    Listen to my muscle memory.
    Contemplate what I've been clinging to.
    Forty-six and two ahead of me.
    I choose to live and to
    Grow, take and give and to
    Move, learn and love and to
    Cry, kill and die and to
    Be paranoid and to
    Lie, hate and fear and to
    Do what it takes to move through.
    I choose to live and to
    Lie, kill and give and to
    Die, learn and love and to
    Do what it takes to step through.
    See my shadow changing,
    Stretching up and over me.
    Soften this old armor.
    Hoping I can clear the way
    By stepping through my shadow,
    Coming out the other side.
    Step into the shadow.
    Forty six and two are just ahead of me.

    I'm gonna break this down and post my interpretation. Pink Floyd, A Perfect Circle, Tool, and Nine Inch Nails will all have some featured break downs of lyrics in this recovery journal. Every break down is how I have seen it, and how it has related to my life as a whole.

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    Holy-Hell Pot!

    So, funny thing is, I never considered coming off all of this cold-turkey to be too dangerous. Little did I know that seizures would've been a real risk for me if I hadn't been taking the meds I've been prescribed for years and years.

    If I wasn't already on lamictal, which is an anti-seizure medication used to stabilize moods in the treatment of patients with bi-polar disorder, where would I be now?


  1. Mr Bumble
    Do me an interpretation of Nine Inch Nails - Closer. I sent it to this to a girl I'm really into, she's still talking to me so I guess she got my interpretations haha, not that you can misinterpret that song
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