the softest sin in life - my departure from heroin - Part 3

By softsins · Sep 16, 2014 · ·
  1. serak, yesterday, out of perhaps an inkling in my head that i needed to release my problem to someone more qualified to help me make the right decisions, i called my school workstudy employer who also happens to be a dear friend of mine who i love to death. he is strongly suggesting me to go to counseling daily either in patient or outpatient... but i'm scared. scared that my parents will find out and my mom's biggest fear is for me to get hooked on drugs. but without going to see the counselors, the school wont make me any excuses to have missed almost a week of classes.
    it's day 5 now. most people would've been quite recovered already but i'm still weak. this is the first withdrawal attempt that i've reached out for people to help me, and i'm astounded by the love and care that is surrounding me daily. i feel blessed.

Comments

  1. Serak The Preparer
    Definitely a great sign that you're acting on your own initiative and hopefully after 5+ days you'll be getting back to normal physically. What are the waiting times like for counselling?? (It's about a year here)

    If you're generally good at opening up then you should respond well to that kind of thing. In my experience I didn't enjoy it, you basically had to ad-lib your life story for an hour. I'd have preferred more structure. It's accepted that mental health care isn't great in the UK so hopefully the standard is higher over there.

    When I was in uni / on drugs I was on the other side of the country to my family, I never mentioned it to them at the time or in 10 years since. If you're asking for money a lot they may already have some suspicions. Telling them would depend really on your relationship. If you stay clean from now then there's little value in owning up I think.

    Long term I think it's really crucial to remedy the problems that undermine you and that should help prevent relapses with the drugs along with your memories of withdrawals. I hope you sort it before it interferes with your studies - I was basically asked to leave uni about 8 years ago and it's still a huge regret.

    Look after yourself softsins!!!
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