"the truth is really fuckin' out there" - addiction notes - Part 2

By polio vaccine · Nov 17, 2014 · ·
  1. i appreciate the responses... i did not expect such a long post to have several reads so soon... but it helps knowing i wrote it for a reason

    and thanks for your comment above... i actually am writing a book..! of course i hope people will like it and so this thread kind of gives me a preview into others' reactions. it is a slightly more fictionalized and timeline-confused memoir - focusing more on the "sci fi" (read: psychotic) elements as literal devices - but i'm starting to revise that decision because i kind of like how this plain-stated, unedited post is reading... i think i like it better than my fiction. it does connect more emotionally, even though the events described are basically the same.

    but yeah, i have to write this stuff down, or talk it out, express it somehow. w.s. burroughs talks about being possessed by an "ugly spirit" and needing to "write [his] way out." when i read that i nearly fell off my chair and cried for joy, cus i related so strongly to that sentiment, and had never seen or heard of it represented anyplace else before.

    this is the big use of creative pursuits, to my mind.... they don't need to be dogmatic and moralizing, in fact they're often flawed if that's how they're designed.... their big usefulness is that they stand as representations of individual human beings, and other people can relate to them, can know they are not alone in their experience of existence, and can find comfort and validation in that. this is why i feel it's pointless to tell stories in fiction when you have none to tell in memoir.... they aren't going to ring true.

Comments

  1. LuLu81
    Hi John.
    I wont say welcome, since you've been here longer than us, lol. But what an incredible journey you've been on.
    I think you are doing remarkably well and think (as you and your gf do) that your continued use of PST is a good idea for your emotional wellbeing. I'm really glad you have found a girl like here. As i was reading, i thought that things wouldn't end well if you had stayed with the first girl.
    I look forward to reading more of your posts and can only reiterate what the others have said in that you are a great writer. Once i started reading, i had to finish. You had me gripped.
    Take Care
    Lu.
  2. lostlygirl
    Exactly. The creative process when overstated, conceptualized to the point of absurdity, and
    excessively added to in the attempt at a connection rarely achieves its artistic purpose. The idea is to simplify, to connect with raw emotion that irregardless of ones background begins to become the main character. The reader feels the same emotions, breathes the same air and lives in the same world.

    A somewhat fictional account, or embellishing only when needing to move the storyline may only be necessary in certain parts. The idea of a main character who is based on you, that becomes involved in some kind of underground conspiracy, a renegade misfit if you will, with psychotic breaks scattered throughout that are somehow woven into the plot sounds really interesting to me.

    You may want to post a fictional blog of your story to get reader feedback. Of course, only take what is useful to you. Art in all its forms tends to connect through simple patterns, irregardless of its intended output.

    Take what you have and simplify into something similar to what you have written above, because that, my friend, is very good. :)

    lostlygirl added 19 Minutes and 16 Seconds later...

    A plot that somehow relates back to the jaw on the beach, that years later becomes a mystery of sorts.

    The protagonist searches for the answers. The plot twist could be something similar to Ian McEwan's "Atonement" in that at the end the reader doesn't know if the story happened, or if parts happened, or if it's all real or just some crazy psychotic break of the protagonist.

    lostlygirl added 16 Minutes and 0 Seconds later...

    And, oh... really get inside of the head of your readers. Know your audience. I can see you writing something similar to "Gone Girl" or "The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo".

    Sorry...Its the uni illustration teacher in me coming out. I can't help myself sometimes. I mean, what is illustration other than a visual story?

    BTW, I would love to teach literature, I couldn't think of anything more intellectually stimulating.

    Cheers!
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