Where do I begin, I'm 22 years old. I started taking Hydrocodone when I was 16, My father would give me one every now and then because he was had 3 back surgeries and would give me one if I wasn't feeling well or had a headache or just whenever. He was also an addict, but however he now has an accuse to use. I never realized over then several years what I was getting in to. I would take 2, 10 mgs max at a time. Over the years, I would by them here and there and never really felt like I needed them or craved them. Up until last year, I started just taking them without asking. It got worse and worse and I always found a way to justify it to myself. I started working, but I had no financial responsibilities so i would just buy pills. To make a long story short It got to where I was taking 5-6 at a time, sometimes twice a day. Some of you probably think this isn't a whole lot but, To me It was enough to cause me to crave it. Now I've been with the girl of my dreams for a year. She has no idea, and I have a car payment and I'll be moving in with her in January. I'm already struggling to pay for my car. I've always grown up with my as my family is financial well off, and I'm a year out from graduating college. It's time that I take control of my life and better myself for the love of my life, I also have dreams of going military soon. So lets get started shall we?
On monday I got ahold of 4 subs 8mg. I took 2 that morning
Tuesday - 1 8mg sub
Wednesday - I slipped and took 4 hydros, but as you all know I got nothing from it and I felt so bad I cried.
Thursday- I have a back injury I acquired by lifting weights. and I aggravated it at work and took 2 tramadol 50mg.
Friday- I took nothing but man I felt like I wasn't there at all completely obvious to anything at work.
That catches us up and brings us to today. I took my last sub about 40 mins ago. My plan is that will be the last one that I take and that I take 2 immodium if I get diarrhea. NO more than 2. I plan on taking no more opiates, I will come here and try to update everyday or atleast a few times a week. I have had little to no physical withdrawals so far, but I know thats because of the subs. I have been in withdrawal trying to quit several times and the stomach issues always cause me to use again.
I will also probably tell more about my story as there is more, but I'm short on time right now
I hope that you all accept me as I will also try and become active to the rest of the people going though the same thing. I would like to also I was inspired by Jungledog and Hydroxyout. I hope to hear from them because they have been an inspiration as I've been reading them for a bit.