Thanks for the replies and the kind words.
Today has been okay. I'm a little hungover, No signs of withdrawal. I'm not sure what the deal is. Maybe I did a good taper. I'm not sure though. I'll have to go a few days without any kind opiates. Today, will be a good day. I have a day off. I spent the day with my girlfriend and our dog.
No my family can NOT know and neither can she. I know that it's kind of a double life, but they arent as understanding as you would think. My girlfriend would be understanding I know she would, but I can't bare to have her look at me differently than she does know. If it comes down to it, I will tell her. If I'm still struggling by the time we move in together I will tell her.
I'm about to play some good ole' World of Warcraft. Drink some coffee. I'll be lingering around the forum today if anyone has any questions or something to say towards my case, ill be here!
JD, the plan is to not take again and "Jump Off", but with my job I couldnt have the no sleep or or upset stomache, or really any withdrawals for that matter. I'm a server at a very high volume restaurant. I'm making good progress, as I haven't purchased any in over a week. I just took the ones given to me. Mind over matter, i've got to control myself.