Your post made me smile, I bought myself a 2014 kia forte just before my problem got bad last year. I would make my car payment and the rest would go to drugs. I have read other journals and thats why I'm here. To document my own. As for alochol, that is the first time I have drink in a few weeks. I dont keep alcohol at the house. It's never really been a problem for me. I just want to go to graduate next spring, go to the military and start my life. It's hard to do that when all you wanna do is get high . I don't know why, but pills would make me so happy and carefree. I felt like i should always be able to feel like that, but now I realize whats life if you just avoid all the ups and downs my masking it with an addiction. I plan on stay active here! Motivation is great.