Thanks man, ,means alot.
I sat with my family for dinner for only a short amount of time cuz i started to feel rly sick,
I started to get terrible stomach pains and congestion and getting the cold sweats. At this point i decided to induce some suboxone (about 2.5 mg) about an hour ago and im feeling pretty good. I got some weed to lift my mood and hopefully help my stomach. Im thinking after i can kick the diesel, weed should be a cakewalk so if i use it now i think it will be ok. My cravings got very bad at dinner all i was thinking about was taking that 20 bucks i had left and getting two bags. But instead, to prevent that i took sub and got some bud.
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i cant take this guilt man...all i can do is feel like shit. If i tell what happened everyone in my family will find out and i just cant have that. I just feel like such a piece of shit. On a side note its almost 24hrs and just some gas pains and stomach cramps. The sub works wonders i almost feel quilty its this easy and didnt do this sooner instead of going down the lieng fucking shithole of decisions i made