For some background, I've been abusing opioids sparingly since I was 14 starting with codeine, morphine, oxy etc. At 17 I was put in a youth inpatient rehab by my parents, and I found it helped me deal with alot of life traumas and stuff like that but did not really help what so ever with addiction. Shortly after I got out I started injecting morphine pills, idk why the sudden jump to the needle Just thought I'd try it out. To be honest, I dont really know if I regret it or not. I want to say no, but I also really want to say yes. Since then I have been shooting heroin and sometimes morphine at least bi-weekly for a little over 2 years now. I'm honestly at my wits end with this addiction. It has killed any potential for growth for so long now and it pains me so much the things I could have accomplished with some of the best years of my life. I'm 20 years old now and still feel 18 inside and 80 years old on the outside. I really don't know where to turn. I can fairly easily get 1 or 2 weeks, my real struggle is staying off. PAWS really gets to me. I have a thousand things I could be doing but it's like I can't find the drive to do any of it in the early stages of sobriety.
Anyways, friday was the last day I used. I've just been tapering myself off with percoset as I blew threw a half gram over the weekend. I currently need 2/day but im only taking 1.
I usually max out around 250mg/day even with bi-weekly use I usually need at least 100mg to get where I want to be.