That makes perfect sense, and is spot on with what I'm struggling with.
I've been clean off the heroin for a week, and what you described makes perfect sense, life is just so dull and "not worth it" not in a suicidal sense but more in a motivation sense. It's been getting slightly better though. Like you said I did some cocaine and drank with a friend last night to just kindof escape myself for a bit.
If I never had a problem with my cocaine or alcohol consumption before is it dangerous while I'm struggling with heroin? Or afterwards? I can stop after 1 rail 1 beer easily and without anxiety.