Hey all, I know its been a while. I hope you have all been well!
As per my last journal post, I am currently at university studying a bachelor of science, with a plan to focus on marine science in particular (not many marine biology degrees around these parts).
Overall, I've been very disappointed.
Classes have to be the lousiest part of uni. I don't mind assignments and tests and most of the material (stats is always a tedious course, and basic chem hasn't been much better), but being a 26 year old in classes mostly populated by 18-20 year old first years has been a struggle.
It seems that the majority are entitled little shits that I do not have anything in common with. I can count the older, more experienced students in all of my classes with both hands.
I had a good laugh when 15 people were kicked out of the uni residence the day after australia day (ONE WEEK INTO EVERYONE'S LEASE) for getting shithoused and starting fights and then proceeded to have a go at the police when they arrived, but my patience is wearing very thin.
The biggest let down by far has been the very small Coastal and Marine Ecology class. The other 17 students in the class are mostly vegan hippies, which is fine. Live and let live has been my motto for a long time. Unfortunately, they don't seem to see it that way.
They seem to think that being a vegan hippie entitles you to treat everybody else like shit. You wouldn't believe the fucking reaction I got when I made the mistake of casually mentioning the fact that I eat meat. Not to mention the death stares when I rolled myself a cigarette at the end of class and put it behind my ear for later. The sheer amount of moral superiority frankly does my fucking head in.
And that's not counting when a 3rd wave 'feminist' derailed the subject matter of an entire class by somehow relating the #metoo movement to bad environmental policy. I'm still not entirely sure how that happened.
I've made a grand total of 2 friends in the 3 months I've been here, and both are my room mates. The guy I buy weed off doesn't count.
Sometimes I can't even go to class unmolested, because there is some shrill idiot getting signatures for some cause or the other by literally haranguing people in the courtyard, and then sometimes even proceeding to try and shame them in front of hundreds of others because this individual had the bad luck to espouse a different viewpoint. The worst part by far has to be the fact that reactionary social 'justice' is a majority viewpoint on campus.
Most days I don't even have the energy to get angry, I just get sad and frustrated.
I know I'm here to pass my classes, get my degree, and get the fuck out. I just don't understand why it has to be this difficult in a motherfucking 'learning' environment.
I've started doing some light philosophy reading, and unfortunately the school of nihilism is the one that appeals to me the most. Which is not a good viewpoint for somebody who has (and is) struggled with depression, anxiety and more than a few suicidal thoughts. I'm more than happy to debate the semantics of philosophy in a different thread, just not this one.
I guess if there's a question to be asked, it is as follows:
WHY THE FUCK ARE PEOPLE LIKE THIS?
P.S. my drinking is at an all time low (can't really afford to drink/don't have the time) but I'm starting to feel like getting back on the sauce isn't such a bad idea.