Utopia...the place of healing - Part 27

By opiatebattler · Nov 6, 2014 · ·
  1. ^^Thank you!

    I decided against taking the Effexor. I do not want to lose my libido or ability to orgasm. Being on opiates so long robbed me of my libido. I've always been a very sexual person and I don't want to jeopardize that again.

    I started to think that coffee was a big part of my anxiety. After my 2nd cup of the day I start to feel anxious over nothing. So as of today, no more coffee. Im also changing my diet to feel better in general and hopefully lose weight.

    I know excercise is the best thing for anxiety, depression and motivation...I've been walking every day but now I'm walking longer. I'm also going to continue with doing yoga as i felt better when i was doing yoga.

    My new puppy arrives next week...He should make a huge difference.

    The psychologist is helping. I'm the kind of person that needs to offload.

    My new man friend is helping immensely. He's never even tried drugs yet is very accepting of my past. Hes possibly the most well adjusted person ive been with. He has a great way of being able to take what life throws and not be swayed negatively. Ive been spending half my time at his place and his friendship is really helping me assimilate back into the real world.

    Missing my daughter is still hard but it's slowly getting easier. Just got to keep building my own identity and life.


  1. Cmenot
    You have several very constructive interventions planned... more exercise, yoga and a puppy.. Sounds about perfect! ;) I think you are an active participant in your recovery.... its important! Good progress, GREAT attitude!
  2. Golddust Woman
    Dear OpiateBattler,
    I have read your entire journal. I am deeply moved by all you have been through and all the things you have done to get better. You have been a great inspiration to me. I have suffered with depression and anxiety since early childhood. I see that I need outside help too.

    Thank you so much for coming to DF and sharing your life so honestly. You have shown me and many others here not to be afraid to seek professional help. You are a hero!!!
  3. opiatebattler
    Thankyou Golddust...You're beautiful comments just made me tear up. I appreciate you letting me know I have had a positive impact on you
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