I decided against taking the Effexor. I do not want to lose my libido or ability to orgasm. Being on opiates so long robbed me of my libido. I've always been a very sexual person and I don't want to jeopardize that again.
I started to think that coffee was a big part of my anxiety. After my 2nd cup of the day I start to feel anxious over nothing. So as of today, no more coffee. Im also changing my diet to feel better in general and hopefully lose weight.
I know excercise is the best thing for anxiety, depression and motivation...I've been walking every day but now I'm walking longer. I'm also going to continue with doing yoga as i felt better when i was doing yoga.
My new puppy arrives next week...He should make a huge difference.
The psychologist is helping. I'm the kind of person that needs to offload.
My new man friend is helping immensely. He's never even tried drugs yet is very accepting of my past. Hes possibly the most well adjusted person ive been with. He has a great way of being able to take what life throws and not be swayed negatively. Ive been spending half my time at his place and his friendship is really helping me assimilate back into the real world.
Missing my daughter is still hard but it's slowly getting easier. Just got to keep building my own identity and life.