It's officially been a month since I've quit. I decided to follow the 3 month program on the lozenges because I tried to go without them for a day and i started freaking out and felt very strange. I take 2 or 3 a day so I'm already close to being fully off of nicotine. cravings still hit me super hard sometimes, and there were moments where I had to get away from all my smoking friends to keep myself from giving in.
I noticed how much better I sing now. How i can breathe deeper. My energy is returning. If I go back to smoking, all of these positive occurences in my body and mind will mean nothing. i'll have to start all over, go through hell for a week all over...and I don't want to do that. I seriously never want to go back to smoking again. the cravings haven't fully disappeared but I will not let them do my deciding for me. i am not powerless over my addiction.