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The inglorious history of my own destruction and other things

LittleBabyNothing, Mar 7, 2017 | |
  1. Journal Description


    How I usually want to quit and how I allways relapse.
    And whining and loads of dramatic stuff between.

    Sounds ironically, but basically this pritty much sums it up. :D

    I have tried to quit many times, but it is without success. Maybe because I am not sure if I want it. I have just lost any illusions about it.Seems like that when I will finnally quit forever, I will be one of those people who suddenly do it in their fifties and never touch drugs again.My major success is being clean for a year.And this was even not because I myself wanted it, but I had to.
    But I still can allways give quitting a try.Even if it is pointless.Sometimes even a small break is a success and at least helps to improve health. :)

    So, there will be my useless ramblings when trying to quit and most likely having a relapse.And over and over again.:D

    So- wellcome to my nightmare! :D


    About Author

    A fully functioning (have a job and gaining second higher education as A+ student) IV addict from Eastern Europe trying to keep her life togeather and fighting herown demons.Trying make the best out of her life as far as it is possible keeping in mind the fact of her drug abuse.And not to die before time.

    Familiar with drugs for more than 12 years.