Bourbon is SWIM'S weapon of choice. I am a 23yr old male, in a well paid job, typing on a $2000 laptop living in his parents house with no partner or dependants. I wait anxiously for his life-long friend to come home from service in Afghanistan. When the friend does come home, they have a bourbon drinking session along with anime and catchup chat, like they have done for three years now. SWIM rapidly notices that his friend gets drunk fast and calls the evening to an end. What's wrong? After all, I have been drinking in his absence - at least a full bottle of bourbon a week for three years, over the weekend. Let's clarify. I have drank 70cl of 40% Bourbon over two days for three years. That's a bottle of whiskey every weekend, only at weekends. Later that week, I feel anxious and angry for no apparent reason, as per usual - at least once a week, I feel bitter and unsocialable for no reason whatsoever other than plans had changed, or that things hadn't gone his way. SWIM drinks a bottle of bourbon for comfort - the warmth works. SWIM can now consume an entire 70cl bottle of whiskey to himself with no obvious effects other than an ache in his lower back (kidneys?) and a feeling of guilt. I have no-one to talk to about these things. I am worried that he is heading for organ failure. I need help.