I have read recently about how Kicking may be hard, but the real problems start to form after, months after. The article was specifically about opiates, something that I knew very well for many years, although I think anytime someone crosses that line from exploration into crutch that this may well apply to them. Essentially what it said was that after you are done and clean there is a metaphorical "Hole" in your mind that you are always trying to dump things into so that it may fill, but it is a hole without bottom, and no matter what you do it will feel like there is always something missing. That doesn't mean that you are fucked for life, however. It just means you have to try a little harder than most for a calm mind, for solace. So I started this thread to find out from all of you ex-junkies, ex-cokeheads, ex-alcoholics, ex-whatevers - What do you do to fill your Hole? Myself - I haven't had a perfect run, I've done a little back sliding here and there, but whereas once the backslides felt like they infilled the hole, they don't feel like that anymore, so I've given up on them altogether. Now I try to just see what there is outside - I spend at least an hour a day in the woods with my dog, just looking at how the trees are blowing, or how the currents form patterns in creeks. Just try to appreciate the world around me consciously, because it seems like something more real than all the addictions in the world. So, How do you fill your hole?