I have decided not to use speed for the soul purpose of feeling good and just sitting around high. He's decided to use marijauna for his recreational use now, and intends to continue using speed to make him feel better while doing normal things. Yeah, addiction is a plague. Nothing I ever do will be completely the same as it was before I had ever tried anything and if I could go back in time and stop myself I would, but I know I'd do it again anyway. I hate the pre-illustration of things in my mind when I overthink things (which is usually everything). However I have got some anti-psychotic medication to help with the delusions and paranoia that accompanies speed use.