Sex/Porn addiction on meth making it impossible for me to stop. help please

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  1. CaliJungle

    CaliJungle Silver Member

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    I first discovered how amazing sex and porn was on stimulants in high school with cocaine. I would try to find times frequently to get high and watch porn for a couple hours and loved fucknig my girlfriend at the time high.

    A couple years later i tried meth and didnt really get it at first. Didnt even really feel very high the first few times. I eventually bought some to use on my own at home and my life changed when i experienced the intensity of porn and sexuality on meth. That craving dug in deep and fast, and when combined with my desire to lose weight i ended up a full blown addict. Using all day everyday for a few years. After a serious of terrible events caused by my meth use ive lowered my use to maybe 2 or 3 times a month.

    I remember a couple times having sex with my girlfriend and it being so amazing but nothing compares to meth and porn. I probably wouldnt even pick up anymore if i couldnt watch porn or have sex on meth honestly. I become aroused with gay sexuality as much as straight sex when i get high and can watch porn for probably days straight.

    No matter how hard I try to stop using or how long I am clean, that sexual craving for meth returns at some point and becomes my focus until I satisfy it.

    People dont talk about this stuff in NA meetings and im hoping someone out there shares a similar experience that can help me get control of this thing finally

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  2. hoopidiupi

    hoopidiupi Silver Member

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    I went through the same torture for years and it almost killed me.. I strongly urge you to read the threads by WaitingForTheFall: "Is Meth Addiction Sex Addiction," and most important his post titled, at least in part as I recall,: "Getting the Most Out of It." Therein lies the answer to our problem. Try the meth use protocol outlined in "Getting the Most." You actually can have extreme pleasure as part of a life you can be proud of. It's working really well for me. Please - give it a try.

    Good luck my friend. I appreciated the honesty of your post and found it admirable. I'm sure others on DF did also.
     
  3. CaliJungle

    CaliJungle Silver Member

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    Nevermind I found it

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    Hmmm im reading through some stuff but not finding anything. Is there something in mind you could share?+
     
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  4. hashpuppy

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    Google reddit the red pill (can't add links)

    I suffer from your problem and this is my solution. Total life change, unleash your potential and leave drugs behind. Get the woman and life you deserve. Drugs will create everlasting unhappiness.

    Also Google reddit nofap
     
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  5. Filo74

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    This is my case too. You are not alone. I'm 8 days without my prescription stimulant of choice (Dexedrine). Sex was amazing.... As was all the wacky shit we do.
     
  6. egghead einstein

    egghead einstein Mercury Member

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    This is the part of meth use that destroys my productivity. I feel like SUCH an idiot after whacking off for 24 hours and neglecting the work I originally took the meth to stay up to do.

    Yet every time i reach a certain level of high, I cannot resist the urge and always think I'll just get it over and done with in 10-15 minutes... which extend to hours and hours.

    The worst part is more meth better sexuality without any limits... I would do less than 20% of what I do if I didn't watch porn. Maybe there's a software to block anything with the word TUBE?

    If I had to quit one or the other I'd quit the porn and not the meth. Its the porn that is doing more harm since time is money and time is maintaining one's life.
     
  7. Slither

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    Yep this is the exact same story with me. Crystal meth makes porn extremely arousing, some times I sit there or lay in bed and masturbate over porn for around 9 hours straight:/ Even back when I had a girl friend I used to sometimes ditch her so I could jerk my self porn on Ice. Sounds sad really haha. Another thing I notice is laying in the dark high on Meth I get the ability to think up intense sexual fantasy's in my head and masturbate over them, I get the gay fantasy's just like your talking about, as well all sorts of other twisted sex fantasy's which I won't go into haha. To me this feeling is very very pleasurable for me and it makes ejaculations stronger. After 4-5 years of IV use and smoking I've realized it is the ONLY reason I use Meth and the ONLY reason I'm addicted.
    Over the years I've used or abused all sorts like Speed, Marijuana, LSD, Heroin and various others and I don't care for any of them what so ever except for Meth, all for and only for this reason we are talking about, the intense sexual desire/porn addiction thing. However I am a bit and always have been a bit of a sex freak anyway way before Meth or drugs so that may explain it:/...
     
  8. Drfeelgood2012

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    Back when I was active in my IV meth addiction, meth and porn always went hand and hand for me. I truly couldn't have one without the other. I loved how it turned me into a freaky/kinky bastard and I was just as addicted to the porn/sex with random prostitues/couples as I was to the shards.
    I can relate to all of the above, my fantasies became very bizarre.. I would find myself watching straight, gay, bi, straight gangbangs and DP's to water sports. Longest I went was 18 hours straight jerking off and i'd feel so worthless after the fact. Even though I am no longer using shards anymore, it has turned me into a permanent sex/porn addict.
    Even now, when I find myself wanting to play with myself after getting super tweaked on adderalls or benzedrex inhalers, I usually have to force myself to set a timer and no matter what stop masturbating after the timer goes off, but there's times I just can't stop it and before I know it I've been at it for 5 hours. It's tough.

    It's such a problem for me to this day that I have some boner pills to pop to take after I spent the entire night masturbating like a maniac to porn, and I know my wife will want some sex in the morning.
     
  9. Rockin69

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    I'm glad I'm not alone in this. I've always enjoyed watching some porn to wank, normal stuff. But on meth...the first time I've noticed the power of meth was when I got home after a 6-hour sex marathon and was still horny and decided to watch some porn.

    Watch "some" porn...for 24 hours. I came 3x in a row...I was like 'WTF is this shit???'

    And following on what some of you said about getting into freaky/kinky porn while high...yeah, same. I'm gay but, and don't ask me why, I can only watch straight porn when on meth. I kinda "discovered" straight porn because of meth and now I find gay porn boring.

    That's pretty much the only reason I do meth...to be able to become a "porn zombie" at some point. To try to repeat that original high...and I don't have to say that it's a case of diminishing returns, I feel that it gets less powerful every time I use it.

    Btw: before meth I would wank, maybe not every day, but at least 3x a week. After meth...I barely wank. I can go almost 2 weeks without. And watching porn sober? Never, I have absolutely zero interest.

    I never knew dopamine influenced so many things in our lives. Most people think that dopamine is only connected to pleasure but it also influences our sexual desires and our ambition, our drive. My therapist says that people who are never sure what they want out of life in terms of work and all, might have a problem with dopamine...either the production or the receptors.
     
  10. Maddogaboo

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    I'm new here and I've read a lot, lots and lots. So much so that this is the thread that caught my attention the most. I am REALLY looking for ways to enhance masterbation. I was also a "crank" addict. At least that's what they use to call it in my day, 25 years ago.. Had to go to a rehab, that shit almost took my life. I read things in others post about meth and all I see is OMG sex, sex and did I mention, sex. I just don't remember it like that. I'm going to guess it's a lot higher grade now than then, I never had that kind of desire when I did it. But when I read what some of you say about your meth and sex compulsion and my mind says, fuck ya, that's exactly what I am looking for. The other half of my mind says ...are you fucking stupid or what!!! You know what that shit did to you back then without sex addiction involved. That is the worst drug in life and I know it, part of me honestly sits here and says....if I just use it for masturbation I can manage it. I think masfturbation is my other addiction and I want to make that as intense as I can and I'm looking for new ways. Going to experiment with yohimbind and that root, damn escapes me now. The other thing I see that's crazy, how young some of you are that write about your addiction. I'm 59 in a month. I don't think my body would handle it like it use to. But damn I want to get lost in porn like that, just once every couple months. But once is too many and a thousand is not enough. It's scary and intriguing.

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    BTW I had snorted crank for about 2 years before I looked for help, I was
    26 when I checked in. I lost my marriage and several other things but I was lucky enough to keep my job.
     
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  11. pirate24

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    Better yet, don't, unless you hate women. At the time of posting this, the top four links are:
    - "Hilary's policies will be different because vagina"
    - "I read AskWomen so you don't have to. (Today's special: girls rationalizing why they cheated on their boyfriends)"
    - "29 year old woman wants her fiancee to understand she has too much self respect to perform certain sex acts AFTER he finds pictures of her doing these sex acts with her college boyfriend."
    - "Jennifer Lawrence is a mega hamstar."

    Can you say "unresolved issues"?