Okay first let SWIM give you a little information about what events took place before this trip because they had a huge impact on the mindstate of this trip. Early January a good friend of SWIM died. His name was K. K took oxycontin and xanax and didnt make it through the night. I am unsure of the exact cause of death and the exact amount of each drug taken but he estimates 10+mg xanax and 80+mg of oxycodone. Early in the morning I was awoken by C's phone call. "K is dead," he told SWIM. I was shocked, he had just seen K the day before and talked to him on the phone the previous night. Everyone was shocked. K was gone. A long time friend to many. I had first met K in the 6th grade and they had been very good friends for several years. Just like that, he was gone. The day he died K called SWIM. Before he died, there had been some bad blood between the two. One thing led to another, and the both of them were not very good friends anymore. They talked on the phone every once in a while but never hung out anymore. There was a point where SWIM told K that if he would not stop taking xanax then he could no longer hang with him. Everyone had a different way of dealing with his problem, and I thought that he would eventually quit. So K called SWIM and for some strange reason SWIM decided he would go visit K and show him his new bike. So I went over to K's house to say hey and see what was up. They talked for a bit and I went his way. I will never forget the last time he saw K. They gave each other a handshake and SWIM left. K had such a big smile on his face. He was very happy to see SWIM and I felt the same way. This kid was amazing. He just had a personality that everyone could get along with. He was the kid who would walk into a party and everyone had to say whats up to him. SWM rode off having no clue that he would never see K alive again. For some reason I went to see K that day. If it had been any other day he might not have gone to see him, might not have felt like it, or might have been too busy. I was so glad that he got to see him for this one last time and everything between them was okay. He was a good friend and I will never forget him. SWIM learned many things from him that will be invaluable for the rest of his life. You know that your personality is formed through interacting with others. I will always have a piece of K with him even if K is gone. I am the person he is now partially because of K and for this reason, he will always carry K with him through life. After the funeral SWIM decided he was going to pop an x tab in memory of K. Him and K had spent a memorable summer together and often rolled with one another. K loved XTC. SWIM loved XTC. They were great friends and had great times together so SWIM decided he would take an XO, something he had not done in over 6 months. SWIM popped the XO and downed it with a few beers. It kicked in in about an hour but this tab was a creeper!! SWIM2 took an xo about an hour after SWIM 1. It was getting pretty late, and SWIM wanted to just go home so he grabbed 3.5 grams of p. cubensis PES hawaiian shrooms and ate them along with a vitamin C tablet. SWIM figured the shrooms would be kicking in right when he got home so he got in the car and drove to his house. It only took about 15 minutes for SWIM to get home but the shrooms were allready kicking in. The usual stuff. SWIM noticed every detail in the carpet and on the celing. Everything had a glossy look to it as if the room had been polished. The world was shining. The classic tryptamine visuals were coming on strong and the XTC was starting to kick in. Like I said, this tab was a creeper, it took a while to come on, but once I ate the shrooms the tab hit him like a ton of bricks. SWIM drank a glass of OJ and went to his room where most of the trip took place. By the time he was settled in and put some music on the shrooms were fully showing themselves. The XTC was sending waves of energy and euphoria through SWIM and he started to dance. The guitar and drums were like electricity for my body. Every beat went into my body, giving him the tingles and everything. The visuals had just started to get pretty strong too. The walls were breathing and SWIM noticed a lot of purple hues and also green hues. I was dancing around for a while until the shrooms were fully kicked in. Then he put on his headphones and layed down on his bed. 80% of the trip was spent on my bed. This was an amazing experience. SWIM closed his eyes and though about K. It was like a movie of all the times they had spent together was replaying in his mind. Time was not much of a concern, but SWIM layed down for several hours just replaying the memories in his mind. SWIM played music that him and K had listened to together. This made the memories even more vivid. I could remember specific events, like when K taught him a certain song on guitar, and when I had last seen K. This memory kept replaying in My mind. The last time he had seen K. This memory only brought joy to SWIM. I could vividly remember the huge smile on K's face, and with his eyes closed, he envisioned K. I did not pay much attention to the open eye visuals but they were pretty strong. The walls were strongly pulsating to the music. They were insync with each other. Each beat, the wall would move and surges of energy were sent through SWIM. Everything was perfectly syncronized. I could feel K's presence. It was as if the two of them were together again. SWIM just held onto his blanket tight and kept his eyes shut. With his eyes shut, him and K were still together. The memories went on and on in My mind. Every memory of K was a great one. The music was vibrating My whole body and during the peak my body was heavily tingling. I was imoble. He was rolling so hard and his body was tingling so much. It felt like he was being electricuted with euphoria. At one time during the peak, I tried to stand up and it was very difficult. my body had gone numb and his arms and legs were heavy. I thought soley of K and himself during the trip and the times they had spent together. This trip was in memory of K so this felt acceptable. SWIM knew that they had ended their friendship on good terms and K was with him the whole time. He could feel his presence and it felt like K was adding to the experience. He could see K in his mind, and feel K in his body. Him and K were together once again. He apologized for everything that had happened between them and K forgave him. This combo was perfect for this occasion. The body sensations were amazing. The euphoria was amazing. The visuals were like home-movies replaying in my mind. This was an eye opening experience. SWIM learned many things from this trip. Life is prescious. Love the ones close to you and show them that you love them. Anyone at any time could leave this world. You dont want to end your relationship with someone on bad terms. I am lucky. If he wouldnt have picked up the phone, then their friendship probably would have ended on a bad note. Forgivness is one of the best characteristics a human being can have. We are all human and we all make mistakes. Forgive those who have done you wrong. Never hold grudges, it just isnt healthy. The entire experience lasted maybe 5 or so hours. S called SWIM about 5 hours into the trip and told him that the XO was the shit. S had been rolling his balls off at a party and had just gotten done dancing with som girls mom! Life is short, but for some of us it is way too short. K should still be alive today. He should be having the time of his life, but he is gone. It just goes to show how prescious life is. Cherish every moment because we are all goners anyways. Make the best of it and make lasting relationships and you will never be forgotten. K is dead but he still lives in SWIM. K left many friends behind but they will never forget his smile. Its been about a month since this experience and a month since his death. SWIM can still remember that grin on his face like it was yesterday. This experience really had made SWIM realize how short of a time we have here. Since then, I have been trying to stregnthen his relationship with his mother and father. They raised him and although divorced, they have a lot to do with who I am and where he is now in life. I have also been trying to stregnthen his relationship with his friends. WHo knows, one of them could die any day. Its sad to say but we are all going to die. Its just a matter of how and when. K could have died in a car wreck, could have gotten cancer. It sucks because it could have easily been prevented but atleast he died doing something he enjoyed. He died with a bottle of pills in his hand which was unspilled. There was no struggle, he went peacefully. To anyone who read this, SWIm hopes you enjoy this report. SWIm wasnt going to write a report but realized that there havent been many reports like this. I love you K and I am truly sorry that you are not with me right now. I too will perish one day and maybe I will see you again. Maybe not. Maybe once you die that is the end....complete nothingness. If this is the case, then we had a good time together and I thank you for all the moments we shared. If not, then maybe we will meet again. Cheers my mates. Enjoy this report, and enjoy life, because this is probably the only chance we are going to get. Be safe too. Drugs can do amazing things, but they can kill too. Learn from K's mistake.