This is mainly directed at recovering or former addicts. Do you think that sometime in the future you will be able to do your once-drug-of-obsession again without relapsing back into the same old addiction cycle? I dunno, this is just interesting to me. I've seen people who must stay 100% clean for all eternity and others, like my own grandmother (a former alcoholic and chainsmoker), who can have an occasional drink and cigarette and keep it an isolated incident with no problem at all. Asfor me, I think I just have way too much of an addictive personality to ever safely do any uppers again.