I have already tried to post this but it seems to be lost, so sorry if it is doubled. Basically I am looking for some advice on something that only this forum would be able to answer at this moment in time, it has taken SWIM a couple of weeks to even sign up! I have dabbled in drugs throughout the past six years, being 20. Regular use of weed up until the last couple of months for sleeping purposes, and have tried coke and of course, speed in the past once every few or more months. At the start of March I got her hands on a half oz bag of base. Bearing in mind the impurity of speed/base in UK! I started taking a very small amount, wrapped in half a skin paper bombed, every morning. The bag lasted a month. At the start of April, I got her hands on apparently a much stronger form of base to be taken in small amounts, which SWIM being the conscience little person did so, and decided to take an even smaller amount wrapped in half a skin paper bombed every morning. I have been doing this up until Saturday past, where SWIM decided to come off a few days to “reset” SWIM’s self. I have suffered depression in the past, her mum and dad have also suffered from depression for years and have been on medication for it. At the end of March SWIM’s uncle who she was very close to passed away, SWIM also realised that what she has suffered from childhood is OCD, which she needs help for, along with miscellaneous worries including money problems etc. I am in a bad state of depression and is going to the docs to get this treated. I have also suffered from panic attacks lately. It was triggered one night after taking base, not sleeping all night and sitting in the same spot, smoking a joint and standing up too fast, fainting, then panicking, hence panic attack. Since then panic attacks have came on but I think it is mostly the brain reacting to situations it feels are similar to the initial one, hence them occurring over. SWIM’s dad also has a past of bad panic attacks, so could be inherited. SWIM realised that when taking speed, panic attacks are known which has caused SWIM to question herself so much about her little daily habit. I have stopped taking base since Saturday night (this is now Tuesday night) and will continue to not take it until nearer the end of the week. I have had a lot of rest and has eaten a lot also! What I am looking to know is if these panic attacks and depression is something that people think would have came on anyway? I think it would have, but is SWIM’s small habit causing SWIM danger? (apart from the danger of addiction of course) is this small amount I have taken the past couple of months dangerous? I have had a lot of rest and eaten a lot while being off it the past few days, would SWIM’s body have “reset” itself as such and so if I do decide to start taking again nearer the end of the week, would SWIM’s body have recovered from the previous couple of months of taking daily? I know that a forum cannot have solid answers, but advice is all I am looking for. Thank you so much in anticipation of your advice!