The pain that lingers

By Verukasalt · Jul 3, 2024 · Updated Jul 3, 2024 · ·
  1. As I sit here, reflecting on my journey as a breast cancer survivor, the lingering pain serves as a constant reminder of the battle I've fought. It's been 12 years since my diagnosis, yet the physical echoes of that ordeal persist, etching themselves into my daily life. The pain manifests in various ways, each with its own character. There's the deep ache in my joints and muscles, a souvenir from the aromatase inhibitors I took, the surgeries I endured, the chemotherapy that I was allergic too. It's a dull, persistent throb that waxes and wanes but never truly disappears. Some days, it's a whisper; other days, it roars, making simple tasks feel like monumental challenges.

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    Verukasalt
    My struggles with chronic pain post cancer diagnosis: As a 12-year breast cancer survivor, my journey with chronic illnesses has been a rollercoaster of challenges and triumphs. . Emotionally, I've weathered storms of anxiety and depression, learning to embrace my new normal.
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  1. ICEMAN1216
    Thank you for the post! I am as well a long term cancer survivor Throat cancer, primary on my carotid artery. So large amounts of radiation and chemo , due to location no surgical option was available ( without Huge risk of dying!!

    Pain is a complicated issue for people with the disease of addiction?
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  2. not2late4fate
    Thank you both for the posts. Funny how things just show up when one needs it. I just happen to be headed to my doctor or should I say A doctor an hour and a half away to get two biopsies. One in my right breast, the other in my lymph node.

    I’m trying really hard to live in the moment and not get ahead of myself. I really am. Right now, even though I feel like shit because I stopped meth seven days ago, I’m still at peace for the moment.

    In between my mothers lung cancer diagnosis last September, my fifty year old sister in laws death last week, stopping my doc for now and this biopsy waiting in the wind, I would think, knowing myself, I would be angry as hell at someone who didn’t deserve it. But I’m not for some reason.

    Sorry to high jack your journal. I just wanted you to know that someone who can barely relate is here should you need to vent. We are all here for you. A lot of people don’t comment but that doesn’t mean you aren’t in their thoughts at any given moment. Keep your chin up, the both of you and I’ll try to do the same.
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  3. ICEMAN1216
    First how are your results??
    You did not High jack Anything!! This is what we share are survivors of a Journey through the Big "C"!!
    We are all here for each other , we are built to operate in a world as "WE" not I . Connection is how all recovery works, we move forward together.
    I am Praying that you and I will have a mutual best friend NED No Evidence of Disease , I love that guy and hope never to loss him!!
  4. not2late4fate
    Awww….thank you. Unfortunately I was not so lucky this time. I had two biopsies last week, one in my breast, the other in my lymph node. Breast was positive. Lymph node negative. Also, my surgeon said I caught it fairly early and it’s not an aggressive cancer which lends to an easier cancer to treat.

    I am scheduled this Thursday for a partial mastectomy. Afterwards, radiation therapy and then a pill I will take for five years.

    The whole thing is rather confusing and considering all the other things in my life ( my mother’s lung cancer diagnosis and my sister in law passing a couple weeks ago) I am a bit overwhelmed but somehow still getting by.

    Unfortunately, I started using after many days and now I’m concerned about the surgery, telling the docs I am using or not. It’s in my chart so I’m sure they will test me so lying (which I hate doing) is out of the question. I’ll cross that bridge when I get to it I suppose.

    I’ll keep you posted and thanks again for allowing me to vent and for everyone’s kindness.
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  5. ICEMAN1216
    Cancer is only a word

    not a sentence !!

    Truley a One Day at a Time ... Event ❤️
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  6. ICEMAN1216
    Hey Girls, How is it Going??One just starting, and one a ways along on this Journey.
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