Without going into the 300 mgs of hydrocodone/d, 6 mgs klonopin/d, and 2 pints a whisky/d I did for 5 yrs , and survived albeit I’m not sure how. So smart doc put me on Suboxone.
I give credit to Suboxone for saving my life, but now I think it will end it. Let me explain: After 30 yrs of being on 24 mgs/d of Suboxone I was able to wean down to 2 mgs/d over a period of 6 months. In my great wisdom I figured I could go cold turkey since 2 mgs is 1/12 of my previous 24 mg dose. I couldn’t have been more wrong! Now 14 days later of pure hell I’m still dealing with massive rls. And please! rls is not the right description of this hellish symptom. It implies your legs have a bit of nervous energy, something you can just walk off. I would rather equate it to an electric fence implanted in your parasympathetic nervous system with a sadistic force controlling the voltage. Setting it either on full high, or a notch or two below that. BUT IT NEVER STOPS! EVER!!!
How is my sleep you ask dear reader. None for 4 days once withdraw started 2 days after my last dose. Then sporadic to date; maybe 2-3 hrs in a 24 hr period. This brings me to me initial premise; I think I’m going to irreversible lose my sanity, DEAD for all sense and purpose.
what can I do short of going back on that evil medication? View attachment 179640